My Marijuana Thoughts I sit on the balcony with a blunt and a cd player, absorbing my surroundings wishing nature was my woman so she could wrap her arms around me Bee’s buzzing around, dogs running, guinea pigs do nothing with their little brain but all the animals are finding their place in the circle, their link on the chain All I ask is when are humans gonna do the same, and stop destroying life? Vicious thoughts like these, tear through my mind like a razor-sharp knife It makes my heart hurt to see the addicts on the street, its not supposed to be like this this is a nightmare I’m seeing and living, its like hell with a lemon twist!! I’ve been on this earth for 21 years, seen so many things, confronted so many fears now the only thing I’m afraid of and can’t control... are my own hot tears At times I feel young as an embryo, at others like a senior citizen playing bingo I’m caught between succumbing to the madness, and staying the way I am and living solo The solitude is very comfortable, only my demons to eliminate but with other people around, the air is filled with fake-ness, envy, lust and hate Money truly is the root of all evil....what’s at the top of the tree? Most people’s feet are stuck in the mud, they’ll never see Racism is alive and kicking, people just hide it these days people need a soul-shower and help in spiritual ways I love being different and staying a symbol of self my mind, heart, and my soul are the source of all my wealth All I can do is start from within, and be the best man I can be how the world accepts me, I have yet to see. Derrick H.