Black Poetry : ~~My Illusion~~

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  1. PropheticNsyght

    PropheticNsyght Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    Another piece in the line of writing from a woman's P.O.V.
    Hope you all can dig this one as well.

    Peace and Soul.
    Breath love, kiss the winds and be easy,

    ~PropheticNsyght





    Married for 15 years to a man I don't love.
    For 15 years I wear the face of another.
    No truth.
    No realism.
    No honesty.
    Just a mask.
    I dedicated myself to loosing 15 years of my life
    living like someone else.
    On the morning of my wedding I woke up prepared to assume someone elses identity.
    I told myself the night before that it was the right thing.
    I told myself that it was too late to cancel.
    I told myself so many lies that i began to
    throw up all of my truth until nothing but lies swam
    in the pit of my belly.

    I stared in the mirror and saw the face of a strange woman.
    I watched as I lost the link between the real me and this
    person I had become.
    In the beginning I voiced my fears to my mother, but all she saw was
    good lookin' and the color of them dollars.
    I tried to tell someone but no one would listen.
    "Baby, buck up and do it."
    "Honey, its just pre-marriage jitters; everyone has them."
    "Girl don't you dare loose that man because of your inconsistency and doublemindedness."
    All of them spoke against it, but I didn't heed the internal warnings.

    I knew I never loved him.
    To him I was just a tropy, a new armpiece.
    To me he was my security...the man who could provide me with any and everything. He was my magician, bacause baby; he would work the
    magic of his pen and my world would shift and be born again...
    brand new.
    I never loved him.
    I stood at that altar and practically slapped God in the face
    with all of the sweet lies that dripped off of my lips.
    Lord, please forgive me! See, it wasn't me, but it was her....
    I didn't love him. I don't love him.
    I'm trapped and looking for a way out...
    A way out of my own personal Alcatraz...
    A way out of my own tailored hell...
    I just want a way out.

    I'm miserable.
    Plain and simple.
    I can't do anything about it.
    See, he is in love with me more than he was
    on the day I sold my soul to satan; the day of our wedding.
    The day I lost me and became someone else.
    He loves more and more.
    He tells me this each day and I smile; striving to
    keep from clawing his eyes out.
    I've grown so caustic and dead with passing time.
    I no longer harbor any love, but he'll never know. They will
    never know. I keep it well hidden. I've become a great actress.
    A woman who should win an academy award for my potrayal
    in, 'This Life.'
    I should win...but in reality, im the looser; the failure.
    All I can do is bear it and wish, no pray some type
    of release comes quickly.
    I don't know how long I can maintain this facade.


    Copyright 2004
    ~PropheticNsyght
     
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    hisili Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    new guy

    that poem hit home hard, cuz I could alwayz tell my mother realle didnt love my father.. and deep down despised him. and we all know now cuz she attempted to stab him, he in shock and still is... and my brother still dwells on it. Still pretend I dont have a dime and have been for 8 months, I pray i dont end up with a woman who dosnt love me.
     
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    another deep expression of emotions flowing here
    well felt scribe
     
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    hey brotha
    do you write professionally?
    this reads like a novel i had read
    I like it lots :)
     
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    PropheticNsyght Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    Man, I can truly feel you on that. Welcome to Destee!!!!!!!!!!! I do hope you enjoy your stay and I look forward to reading your works. I pray the same thing pa. Know that. Thank you for the love papi.
     
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    PropheticNsyght Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    Bruh, you are nothing short of a blessing! Thank you so much for your beauty. I appreciate you greatly!!!!! :bellydance: :bellydance: :witch: :witch: :witch: :witch:
     
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    Thank you so much ma. I'm striving or will begin striving to start writing professionally! I would love to do it. I thank you for your love. You are truly beautiful and a big help.
     
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    Not everyone has the talent to flow from a different point of view like that....consider yourself blessed. I felt the sadness in this, in feeling trapped. Flow on poet....amazing.
     
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    PropheticNsyght Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR YOUR LOVE MAMI. I APPRECIATE IT GREATLY. :tongue3: :tongue3: :tongue3: :tongue3:
     
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