Black Poetry : my demented state...{prelude to 'i'm free'}

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  1. baller

    baller Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    {overwrought by} GUILT
    flooding my soul

    my heart is heavy
    i cannot see to comprehend
    the magnitude of this {sigh}
    this guilt thing

    my weakened state

    born out of anger and sorrow
    over grievous mistakes
    my SELF makes

    i lament
    over the death of my mate
    no...not death in the physical sense
    but lost to me {just the same}
    as she walked away
    ...content

    in my demented state
    there are cavernous voids that hold me prisoner
    surrounded by a swirling mist
    weighted down by ball and chains that bear my father's name

    a prisoner...

    of wanton (lust) and
    rampant (ecstasy)
    bounded
    by all things left to me
    causing self-imposed sufferings
    induced by the soul of me

    i find that i tire of the futility of fighting against this
    ...this swirling mist

    in my demented state
    i look for answers...reasons for my fate
    deep in the swirls of darkened mystery
    i search for things...so far, hidden to me
    how do i discover who i am to be
    when, even my SELF, i've come to deceive

    hidden behind the shadows of a tomorrow day
    where drama resides...and conflict comes to play
    i open the door to my dark side
    hasten my thoughts
    as i quicken my stride

    a hungry mist swam across the moon
    i listened, in the darkness, to the call of the loon
    and, soon, before darkness gave way to the day
    i sat before (dawn)
    to hear what she (had to) say

    today
     
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    $$RICH$$ Lyon King Admin. STAFF

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    walk in da light

    forth she be of lost love
    yet ya heart will find peace
    of self
    thou shell be alright in due tyme
    hold ya head up high
    da light will guide u through.
     
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    dementia...

    madness...
    borderline insanity...
    humanity's undercover
    dark, mental...
    well, ok...i digress

    applause for you
    expressing "ballerism"...
    freedom is a wonderful
    feeling...

    free your mind~
     
  4. baller

    baller Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    MY PEEPS...

    when the shadows of darkness
    hover over us
    it's hard to live
    IN GOD WE TRUST
    until you can pull yourself
    from the deep
    you're nolonger living
    to life...you're asleep

    'til you're FREE.

    THANKS FOR FEELING ME.
     
  5. Da Street So'ja

    Da Street So'ja Banned MEMBER

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    the fact you

    look for answers
    is half the battle

    nice touch of life here

    DSSNY
     
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    baller Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    So'ja...

    THANKS for reading...
    keep dropping dem rhymes from the streets...keeping us informed.

    One.
     
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    baller Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    in my demented state...

    there are times...DAYZ
    that i generally waste
    DEEP in the fog of my hazy daze
    clarity no longer
    comes my way.

    BUT I'LL KEEP LOOKING.

    thanks for reading me.:)
     
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