Khasm13 : mother never told me...

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  1. Khasm13

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    as you sleep in my bed
    i come to check on you
    as you rest your head
    i touch you on your cheek
    get away from me muthaf%cker
    is what you speak
    while i’m kicked in the throat by your feet
    you rise to your knees
    the swirl of your actions mystify me
    as you wake you say
    why are you laughing at me?

    i’m laughing at thee
    to keep from getting grisly
    man you just kicked me
    and cursed at me
    then jumped out of your seat
    all of that is the reason for my heat
    wrapped up in laughter
    self control made that my banter
    im starting to see a pattern
    cause you’ve done this before
    whatever you were dreaming must have been hardcore
    i know this cause my throat is sore…

    so i ask
    when you were a child
    did anyone ever touch you wrongly
    or playfully got too wild?
    as tears start to fall from your watery eyes
    you respond
    some people in my family are not some nice guys…

    my aunt made me eat her out at age 9
    and i hated it every time
    but i just didn’t know any better
    cause my moms never explained things down to the letter
    my aunt would always ask me to get her wetter
    then she would do the same to me
    and i would let her

    at age 12 my older cousin
    took me to my grandma’s back room for some lovin
    he would make me grind him till he creamed in his pants
    no one told me it was wrong at second glance
    i wish i had a second chance
    knowing what i know now
    i would stay away from family members that were so foul
    this pains me to talk about
    khari why did you bring this out of me
    im so angry and confused i want to shout
    *sobbing*

    <this problem has no color>
    <unconcerned mothers>
     
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    Whoa!!!! that was sum serious talk....mus hav been painful to write....but poetry is form of release bette than any high....Stay up an' keep flowin'
     
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    thanks anointed...
    this was one of the roughest conversations
    that i have ever has with anyone...
    it was hard writting it
    peace
    khasm
     
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    Kah..istillluvyou!

    Its painful to write out the demons of yourpast , yet its beeter than to hold it on all the time...Thank you so much for sharin :) i hope those demons will leav you :grouphug:
     
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    as hard as it was writting this
    i know it was harder for my girl(at the time)
    to tell me about it...
    it's a million stories in the city
    this is only one...
    peace
    khasm
     
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    man dat's laying it down !
    tyte deep scribe
     
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    word...i gots a lot of stories
    but im no storyteller

    how does that sound?
    peace
    khasm
     
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    Khasm...I'm sorry she had to go through all that...but I'm glad she had a brotha like you to open her heart to...why come I cant be blessed with a brotha like you? :)
     
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    you can never keep a good black woman down
    so i know that cat your looking for will come around...

    thanks for putting that situation in perspective :)
    peace
    khasm
     
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    I think I've been there before. I was young and the cousins were a little older, but it was nipped in the bud real quick and now I don't have a strong memory of it. Just a feeling that I was there before. This was awesome in content, but so sad in reality.

    Thanks Khasm!!!
     
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