i dont know if it was the song i heard just 15 minuts ago... or that these emotions had to be released some how.. its you i see now... we may never had that mother daughter bond.. while i was young... but.. right on this moment i miss you .. No one knew you were just struggeling always on the run just looking for love... yes .... you hurt us back in the days.. you did some wrong.. but we all are human... but you never had a dad looking out for you.. and you were not raised by youre mom.... I just had a flashback of our reuinion 2 years ago on the island.. when i saw you i had to cry inside... i saw the traces of trialls hard work on youre back and face... the grieve of man broken promises... but i kept myself brave... cause when i use to show my emotions are wanted to hug you.. you always pushed me away... but i see you now ... i see you now.. its ok.... I want to be here for you... i always wanted to be there for you.. and i grow stronger ... by the day.... I will keep loving you... no mather what you will say... No you werent there for me... as a little girl.. when i was hurt ...when they ran over me.. you didnt took me in youre arms... but we are making progress... on the island you gave me a huge ... and for the first time i felt a warmt... No you werent there for me ... at my gratuation.. but you encurage me now... to explore my talents ..... and offer me a hand for the little steps... that has to be taken.. No you werent there... when someone broke my heart for the first time.. But you shure stood up for me...when i was .. planning to go out... to be under the younger fooks mom said on the island to have a good time... i dressed my self nice... flower in my hair... i was supposed to be picked up by a friendly guy... it was just a son of a friend of my mom ... i cried cause he didnt show up.. that night.. and for the first time you said... ""now that is rude ... that is the rudest thing... no sweety you said ... what a ..*** h.o.l.e.... he is going to be sorry ....tomorrow when he sees you the .. for the first time.."' oh ...i shure do know how you feel...this hurts .. cause you were so enthousiastic you wanted to dance have a good time.. not just sit here and only talk with the old ones .. and you huged me... and that did me good... we are making progress.. and i just saw you... and i cried .. aww i never knew about .. you finding youre first husband with another woman Under tha Shower... aww i never knew ...paps not always being nice... holding a picture under his arms or in his suitcase. ? of a nother woman ... while you were about to give me life... Aww mommI ...........mommi I cryy .. right now i cry.. i feel you i have been there... I HAVE BEEN THERE .... it hurt like a knife... Oh i know that look in his eyes... that you feel sumthing aint right i just saw you... i miss you you far but now so close aww i knew there wasnt sumthing right... there was more behind ... the tuff woman.... more behind the shouting eyes... aww i cry.... it was rude for you to... a rude life... awww let me hold you.. let you hold me... let us hold... tha whomb.... aww..