How can I feel the turmoil? …The boiling fire inside my soul It takes control of me like no other. I can’t stand the thought of you gone knowing in my heart is where you belong. But you hurt me… disappointed me… a pain that stabs me deep down into the depths of my soul… I call out for salvation to rescue me from the pain that I have endured. For to endure such pain I can’t take it no more. So I can’t have you… so I have to let you go… well go and never turn back… walk away and me I beg you to forget… my eyes hurt from the site of you… and I… well I am no misty gray. How can I love you then not have you… How could I need you and then let you go. Will we ever love again…that I do not know. I can’t stand the thought of you loving another. I can’t stand the thought of sharing you with another… but I can’t stand the thought of you being gone… because I love you… I love you so much that I hate you. You brought a pain that no woman should endure… a sadness that I pray once gone shall stay gone for ever more… ...my bright shiny days are now gloomy and desolate… my tears are like the sea… flowing quickly and salty as I taste them on my mouth… the same mouth you once kissed… you once touched…you once loved. Oh how can this be… I love you so much its killing me… …And I hate you for allowing me to swallow and move on… to take this pain all alone. To be strong by myself... and to know that I will find no one else that I could love like you… who will love me like you did I cry… I cry and I cry how can my whole world turn upside down how can I forget what I thought was so beautiful knowing that it could never be… how can I be so silly to know that you once loved me… now knowing that I cannot have thee. What am I suppose to do… …for now my whole world is misty blue.