The Front Porch : Memoirs of a misguided black girl

Discussion in 'The Front Porch' started by Shaundre Shuler, Nov 26, 2012.

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WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THIS STORY

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  1. GOOD

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  1. Shaundre Shuler

    Shaundre Shuler New Member MEMBER

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    Funny thing about love is that when all the smoke clears from all the mushy stuff u really see who's down and who's not...my love has been questioned its been left for dead its been pushed to the side but most importantly its been rejected...its crazy...dont take my love for granted cause than it moves far away real far outta ur reach...and by the time it comes back it will be worth nothing because you decided to just treat it like it means nothing so as i watch the scenes of this love go pass i will always remember my november love...but will it remember me?...im gone…**** I cant sleep knowing that our heart beats aren't intertwined like the old times...my heart is yearning for just one ounce of that old school love u know the love that u get when u have flaws but ur mate still lets u know its cool cause ur flaws make u who u are and that they wouldn't change you for the world even the things they could change they wouldn't cause those are the things they love the most about u....i know I'm talking kinda soft right now but i don't know how else to be i tried the hard roll i tried the bad girl thing i tried the yes sir no sir thing hell i even tried just doing everything loves way but in the end my heart was still the one that was shattered I'm stuck at 4:19 am I'm just so **** stuck..
    Just feels like pain all around me want to run and hide cant the world will just find me all over again and suck me back in to this horrible nightmere where do I turn who will be brave enough to break this barbed wired fence and these chains around my heart ??. I AM LOST and im not sure I want to be found at all I use to be so comfortable with myself..i am not anymore I made a lot of mistakes I hurt a lot of people that didn’t deserve it and I cant take the mistakes back although I wish I could erase my mistakes sadly it wont happen…im stuck in this one sided like no where to turn no where to go. NO LIFE NO COLOR NO LOVE I AM BLANK… I AM SORRY let me bleed out all of these emotions please. I wanna cry until there is nothing left cant really cry though don’t really know how to..i don’t really how to be human I don’t really know how to love maybe on v e day I will know how to love but right now im not cutting it some one save me please
     
  2. baller

    baller Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    if i may be somewhat judgmental:

    you sound too young...too ALIVE... too cool to be
    LOST...COLORless...or abused, to me
    to have suffered all the things you IMAGINE you have
    broken hearts always mend...and you will still care
    so bleed, if you must, for a moment...you may
    then get up...raise up...heed these words i say
    the future holds MUCH for a girl like you
    of strong heart...strong mind...and a love that's true
    be patient in your quest for that special one
    ENJOY each day. your life's ONLY JUST BEGUN


    YOUR STORY OF SHATTERED DREAMS AND BROKEN HEARTS is quite moving. made me think of all the young people out there who give up hope...before they've even begun to live...and think that ENDING IT ALL is the answer they're left with. WHEN IT'S NOT.

    KEEP WRITING.
     
  3. jamesfrmphilly

    jamesfrmphilly going above and beyond PREMIUM MEMBER

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    a bit TMI for a introduction i think….
     
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    jamesfrmphilly going above and beyond PREMIUM MEMBER

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    love is like a city bus…..there's always another one coming:wave:
     
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    :lol::lol:
     
  6. Caramel de leche

    Caramel de leche Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    :lol::rofl1:

    Jamesfrmphilly is the funniest member on this board
     
  7. Asomfwaa

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    It's a good story, but also really sad.

    As a literary exercise, greatly emotional.

    As a confession, disheartening.

    Don't forget what Mama said, "You can't hurry love. You just have to wait."

     
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    Beautiful. Brave. Honest. Interesting.
     
  9. Mario D King

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    My Sista,
    In life we all are faced with disappointments and dispair...Remember, there is a lesson learned for every experience we go through. We go through these things to be able to handle them better in the future!!!
    Keep bleeding through your pen...
    One Love!
     
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