Feelin' a different reality
JaylaMaria,
I've included my emergency prescription at the end of my post. It works for me, and I've changed a few things in my life with this. Before I go there I would like to admit to you that I have been in abusive relationships, and just like this situation, had red flags all over them! When a snake strikes us it's usually because we have let the dragon within striking distance and there's always a warning that we are in danger.
Our relationships are formed from our 2nd chakra, our sacred area. This chakra is the area of sacred sexuality and personal self-reflection. When we form new reltionships with others they help us to "see" what we believe about ourselves. If this area is traumatized or hurt spiritually or physically it will impact the nature of your relationships. This includes our relationship with ourself, with money and with power.
Rape, molestation, incest, physical abuse by a partner, etc... all have an impact on this chakra. It is part of my suggestion that you look at your situation from a holistic view, in addition to having professional support.
This man is what we can call, a predator. He is a materialization of the fears you may hold about yourself. Feelin' inadequate, overlooked, unpretty, unintelligent, unheard, etc.... get enough of these bad self-image feelings and you draw to you the dragon in the flesh.
Please, do not take the situation lightly, brother James hit the nail on the head when he said this was abuse. This man is abusing your spirit and your mind and although you may find his behavior curious, and interesting, do not let your curiosity place you in harms way. Entities like him want something very precious JaylaMaria, they want your Spirit, your soul, the essence of life that animates your body, and like a vampire they will feed from you until you either surrender or find the strength to fight them off.
It is most interesting to me how you see yourself, at 24. Quite frankly, you are still a young person. In Canada, I don't know about the state that you are in, but here you could go on all types of excursions, funded programs until you are 29 because you are considered youth!
In terms of this man being in your group project, that is no reason to give him your time. You don't want to be rude, but do you want to be his prey?
As little girls sometimes we get wrong messages sent to us, and one of these messages is it's not nice to "say no", or be rude to strangers. You need to uproot these beliefs, strengthen your backbone and be the womban that the divine intended you to be.
I don't know your financial situation, but if you are a full time student with a fixed income, getting a psychologist (they don't prescribe pills) subsidy should be available. In the meantime, check out some books by Iyanla Vanzant and another one of my favorites is Opening to Spirit by Caroline Shola Arewa.
I believe in you girl, now you do the same and believe in yourself.
p.s - my immediate solution, my home remedy for 9-1-1 situations is this:
one of my mentors taught me the power of thought, and by focusing and thinking of the lonliness in your life, you are drawing more of it to you!
Describe on paper what you ideally desire, find a visualization in your minds eye and then attach to it, the feeling you will have when it's your reality.
Do this every day, every moment you feel yourself slipping into a negative lonlely poor me pity party, and your vibration will soon lift.
Consider the kinds of people you would like to have as friends, consider not their physical attributes, but their internal wirings. Visualize yourself with your new friends doing the activities that make you happy and rev yourself up with FEELING it. FEEL it into existence! Get out of the bad vibes you're feeding yourself and the parasite you drop off too!
Good luck.
JaylaMaria111 said:
JaylaMaria,
I've included my emergency prescription at the end of my post. It works for me, and I've changed a few things in my life with this. Before I go there I would like to admit to you that I have been in abusive relationships, and just like this situation, had red flags all over them! When a snake strikes us it's usually because we have let the dragon within striking distance and there's always a warning that we are in danger.
Our relationships are formed from our 2nd chakra, our sacred area. This chakra is the area of sacred sexuality and personal self-reflection. When we form new reltionships with others they help us to "see" what we believe about ourselves. If this area is traumatized or hurt spiritually or physically it will impact the nature of your relationships. This includes our relationship with ourself, with money and with power.
Rape, molestation, incest, physical abuse by a partner, etc... all have an impact on this chakra. It is part of my suggestion that you look at your situation from a holistic view, in addition to having professional support.
This man is what we can call, a predator. He is a materialization of the fears you may hold about yourself. Feelin' inadequate, overlooked, unpretty, unintelligent, unheard, etc.... get enough of these bad self-image feelings and you draw to you the dragon in the flesh.
Please, do not take the situation lightly, brother James hit the nail on the head when he said this was abuse. This man is abusing your spirit and your mind and although you may find his behavior curious, and interesting, do not let your curiosity place you in harms way. Entities like him want something very precious JaylaMaria, they want your Spirit, your soul, the essence of life that animates your body, and like a vampire they will feed from you until you either surrender or find the strength to fight them off.
It is most interesting to me how you see yourself, at 24. Quite frankly, you are still a young person. In Canada, I don't know about the state that you are in, but here you could go on all types of excursions, funded programs until you are 29 because you are considered youth!
In terms of this man being in your group project, that is no reason to give him your time. You don't want to be rude, but do you want to be his prey?
As little girls sometimes we get wrong messages sent to us, and one of these messages is it's not nice to "say no", or be rude to strangers. You need to uproot these beliefs, strengthen your backbone and be the womban that the divine intended you to be.
I don't know your financial situation, but if you are a full time student with a fixed income, getting a psychologist (they don't prescribe pills) subsidy should be available. In the meantime, check out some books by Iyanla Vanzant and another one of my favorites is Opening to Spirit by Caroline Shola Arewa.
I believe in you girl, now you do the same and believe in yourself.
p.s - my immediate solution, my home remedy for 9-1-1 situations is this:
one of my mentors taught me the power of thought, and by focusing and thinking of the lonliness in your life, you are drawing more of it to you!
Describe on paper what you ideally desire, find a visualization in your minds eye and then attach to it, the feeling you will have when it's your reality.
Do this every day, every moment you feel yourself slipping into a negative lonlely poor me pity party, and your vibration will soon lift.
Consider the kinds of people you would like to have as friends, consider not their physical attributes, but their internal wirings. Visualize yourself with your new friends doing the activities that make you happy and rev yourself up with FEELING it. FEEL it into existence! Get out of the bad vibes you're feeding yourself and the parasite you drop off too!
Good luck.
... please make yourself at home ... 