Black Poetry : LORD PLEASE TELL ME

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  1. FINDLOVEINME

    FINDLOVEINME Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    LORD,
    I NEED YOU TO TELL ME,
    HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO FEEL
    WHEN I CAN'T FEEL NOTHING AT ALL
    NUMB TO THE PAIN OF MY REALITY
    CAN'T DEAL WITH THE FORMALITIES
    OF MY TRUTH
    NO,
    I DON'T NEED DR. PHIL OR DR. RUTH

    I NEED A SALVATION, A NEW REVELATION
    I NEED REDEMPTION NOT TO MENTION
    I NEED YOU LORD

    PLEASE TELL ME, HOW, AM I SUPPOSE TO FEEL, WHEN I NO LONGER CAN HIDE THE BLACK EYES
    WHEN THE PAIN HURT SO BAD, THAT MY EYES CAN NO LONGER FORM TEARS TO CRY

    HOW, AM I SUPPOSE TO FEEL WHEN HIS FIST MAKE MY FACE LOOK LIKE IT UNDER CONSTRUCTION
    WHEN HIS ABUSE CAUSE MY LIFE TO LIE IN TOTAL DESTRUCTION

    JUST PLEASE TELL ME HOW, AM I SUPPOSE TO FEEL AS MY LIPS BEGAN TO SWELL ON MY FACE
    WHEN MY ONLY REALITY IS THE BLOOD FROM MY MOUTH THAT I TASTE

    HERE I, AM A BITC# AGAIN TODAY, NEVER ANY KIND WORDS TO SAY
    BUT THROUGH IT ALL I STILL FIND THE STRENGTH TO PRAY, THAT I'VE SURVIVED ANOTHER DAY

    LORD YOU KNOW,
    I HAVE CRIED OUT, REACHED OUT, SHOUTED OUT UNTIL I, AM, ALMOST PRAYED OUT
    I FEEL SO LEFT OUT, WORN OUT, DYING OUT FROM ABUSE THAT HAS PUT MY MIND IN SO MUCH DOUBT

    LORD PLEASE LOOK AT ME, YOU SAY I, AM, YOUR CHILD, PLEASE HELP ME, I WANT TO DIE
    YET I DON'T BELIEVE IN SUICIDE, BUT I DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH LONGER I CAN SURVIVE

    LORD I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO PRAY ANYMORE, MY THOUGHTS ARE NO LONGER MINES TO THINK
    I'M SO SCARED, BECAUSE, HE WANTS TO CONTROL EVERYTHING ABOUT ME, EVEN THE WORDS WRITTEN IN THIS INK

    LORD IF NOT TONIGHT, SOMEDAY
    CAN YOU PLEASE FIND ME, HELP ME, SEEK ME, KEEP ME, PLEASE RELEASE ME
    FROM THIS PERSONAL HELL, FROM THE ME THAT I'VE FAILED

    SAVE ME FROM THE HANDS THAT DEMANDS MY DIGNITY AND MY SANITY
    PLEASE SAVE ME FROM THE MAN, THAT HATE TO LOVE ME, BUT LOVES TO HATE ME

    I DON'T KNOW HOW I GOT TO BE HERE, BUT I STAND BEFORE YOU, WITH NOTHING LEFT OF ME BUT MY WORDS AND MY HEART
    I STAND BEFORE YOU WITH THE LAST BREATH THAT I MAY GET A CHANCE TO BREATHE, ASKING YOU TO CHOOSE ME A BRAND NEW START

    LORD PLEASE BLESS ME AND GIVE ME A CHANCE TO FEEL
    WHAT IT'S LIKE TO HAVE MY SOUL AT PEACE AND MY SPIRIT HEALED

    TONIGHT LORD
    TAKE ME BACK, TAKE ME FROM THIS DEMON, I CALLED MY MAN
    REMIND HIM THAT YOUR LOVE FOR ME, IS MORE POWERFUL THAN THE STRENGHT OF HIS HAND

    © Copyright 2004 by FINDLOVEINME
     
  2. watzinaname

    watzinaname Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    Must be so awful, to be abused by the very one you thought would protect you. The Lord always listens, even when we think he isn't. I felt the ache in these words. This was very emotive sister.
     
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    queentswana Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    If it was me? ...the time that you're taking to send out this message, would be my fleeing time...for real. You know how it goes...flee now, pray later.
    this is a very, very creative tight piece you put together, and I'm hoping you're working with creativeity and not reality.
     
  4. FINDLOVEINME

    FINDLOVEINME Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    I'VE BEEN DOWN THIS ROAD A LONG LONG TIME AGO, AND I PRAY THiS WILL NEVER BE MY REALITY AGAIN, BUT THERE ARE A LOT OF PEOPLE I KNOW, WHO REALITY IS JUST A PRAYER AWAY FROM SUICIDE

    THANKS FOR THE REPLIES
     
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    $$RICH$$ Lyon King Admin. STAFF

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    deep emotional feelings flowing here deep sad tale
     
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    Oh my...
    this piece is heart wrenching
    absolutely heart wrenching
    I suppose thats what makes
    for powerful poetry...
    when it hits your heart and soul
    like lightning striking in the night...

    whoa...
    Felt every part of this ...
     
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    I'm sitting at my desk right now, with glassy eyes, because all I could think of was "Run, run! Get away now!" It was like a movie playing in my head. My sister, I applaud you for getting away from a situation like this in your past as well as being the voice for those who don't feel strong enough (yet) to speak for themselves.

    Powerful read.
     
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    gempis Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    Just a phenomenal flow. You have really moved me. I'm puttin you in my thoughts and prayers, and sendin you love.
     
  9. FINDLOVEINME

    FINDLOVEINME Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    GEMPIS, THANK YOU VERY MUCH.
     
  10. Destee

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    :wave: Haaaaaaaaaaaay FINDLOVEINME :wave:

    This is the peace i mentioned when responding to one of your other peaces ... this is it ... man ... as i read these first few lines ...

    LORD,
    I NEED YOU TO TELL ME,
    HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO FEEL
    WHEN I CAN'T FEEL NOTHING AT ALL
    NUMB TO THE PAIN OF MY REALITY
    CAN'T DEAL WITH THE FORMALITIES
    OF MY TRUTH
    NO,
    I DON'T NEED DR. PHIL OR DR. RUTH

    I NEED A SALVATION, A NEW REVELATION
    I NEED REDEMPTION NOT TO MENTION
    I NEED YOU LORD


    i just KNEW you were looking all up in my life !!! ... and then as i continued to read, it proved once again the power of poetry ... how the words ... no matter the subject, can be applied to a life ... a circumstance ... a situation ... so beautiful !!!

    Thank you for sharing!

    :heart:

    Destee
     
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