Looking back in time makes me sad. I see pain and degradation every step of the way. A child left to the mercy of a stepfather and learning to fend for himself. Trying to learn what this life is all about. Surrounded by two legged animals ready to feast on a young impressionable mind. The pain suffered from the beatings received is a constant nightmare. A young boy, begging for it to stop and the words falling on deaf ears. A sadistic grin and a cold stare is the only mercy received. Blow after blow from the whip of a man who will never be pleased. Wondering, what did I do wrong? Am I treated this way because I was born or because I'm not your biological son? Trying to be the best son alive and doing everything you say. "Never good enough" rings out in my ears as my mind prepares for another dance. Looking back for a mothers help which never came. Sometimes, I was told I am to blame. Never to forget words "If only you would behave", **** what a thing to say. To young to understand the bondage she had to endure. Calling to the "ALMIGHTY" to release me and take me away. Didn't get the answer I was looking for but a voice said to press on and remember this when you have a son. So, here I stand today. A strong, loving and nurturing man. I see that the "ALMIGHTY" had a plan. Just "Looking Back", something I wanted to share.