I have loved you longer than any man in my whole, entire life. You have been my confidant and my best friend…you cut through my soul like a knife. I have longed for you and loved you deeper than words could ever show. But the time has come for me to admit that I have to let you go. My favorite thought, memory, joke and conversation are all bottled up in you. I can barely go about the tasks of my day ‘cause you are in everything that I do. Never did I think for one moment that I would have to forego… how much I truly love you but I have to let you go. How could I be so naïve all these years? I suppressed and displaced all my tears. Denial was my truth but now the secret is out. Not one day has gone by that I did not wish that we had been more than friends throughout. My whole existence has been spent loving you but now I really know… longing for you is not healthy for my heart so I have to let you go. If there has been one lesson that I have learned from this… It is to never again let my fears handicap my ability… to love who I love because this decision is tougher than anything I will ever experience. It’s so! Never in my life will there be anything more painful than finding you, kissing you, loving you, wanting you, needing you and letting you go!