Black Poetry : Last time I killed myself

Discussion in 'Black Poetry - Get Your Flow On!' started by Archival, Jul 29, 2001.

  1. Archival

    Archival Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    I remember that night in a beaten down bar
    Just a poor man singing songs strumming my guitar
    Playing a town and moving along
    Drifting across the urban landscape
    But things couldn't stay the same
    As I sang without a penny to my name
    Each song unique and different every time it was told
    From heat of passion to deadly cold
    I sang of love and hate and all things between
    Of people met and places seen

    And I remember that night in a beaten down bar
    Had nowhere to go but an empty car
    So I played with passion through the night
    Maybe it was the only happiness I ever had
    Couldn't stop and walk away
    So I continued to play
    And the crowd went home teary eyed
    A solemn ending as I sat and cried
    Made me wonder if they could know
    This would be my last real flow

    So I sold the guitar and moved along
    Never to sing another song
    Got an everyday job and worked to the top
    My passion diverted to valued things
    But theres no adventure in nine to five
    Nothing there to keep you alive
    So I went back to that beaten down bar
    From my nice home in my new car
    The place was abandoned and falling apart
    Like the scattered pieces of a broken heart
    So I stood there and realized I'd achieved my goal
    But that night in the bar I lost my soul

    --Archival
     
  2. GQ

    GQ Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    Archival,

    Feelin' this. Very nice flow!!!

    Peace
    GQ
     
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    baller Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    archival...

    the title was a definite stopper...but the flow was {smoove}

    sing yo' sad song, guitar man.
     
  4. Archival

    Archival Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    Thanks you two.

    Well thanks, I appreciate it, really wish I had more time to come around here and share my infrequent musings :).

    And yeah, the title was strong. It was one of those moments where we make a decision that changes us completely. That was the last time I killed myself. Makes me wonder if I'm better off now, compared to that night in a beaten down bar...
    And I still miss that damned guitar.

    Soul seeking,
    --Archival
     
  5. MsDLite

    MsDLite Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    beautiful...

    loved it...!
    touched me deeply...

    and we leave what is seen
    as not living life...
    for glitter and lights of life...
    not all~right; the "highlife"...

    i am quiet...my mind everywhere...

    thinking~
     
  6. cocobutterskyn

    cocobutterskyn Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    This is sad

    I'm feeling this. It makes one think. We set our goals or sometimes goals others think we should meet for whatever reason and they are not always goals which make us happy or enjoy life. But we accomplish our/their goals and still something is missing.
    This was a very thought provoking piece. Thanks for sharing.

    MadLove:heart: CCBSKYN
     
  7. Destee

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    Archival ... always good to see you back
    getting a glimpse inside my Brother

    very nice

    :heart:

    Destee
     
  8. Archival

    Archival Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    Thanks and Thanks

    Well, I'm glad to get some time to come back by Destee. I know that I am not the most active member, but it's always good to get back in and share a bit of myself. Theres something about this place that keeps me coming back, even if only for a brief moment to read. Any day, any hour, any moment, there is always something here to connect with, something to feel. Always something to brighten a day. I can only hope I add to this from time to time in some small way, even if I am, infrequently soulful...

    And thanks ccbskyn, the hardest part of changing yourself, is redefining who you really are. I knew the answer once, but gave it away. I'll find it again, but in the meantime... I'm soul seeking.

    --Archival
     
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