Black Poetry : Last Night I Cried

Afridancr

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Danm!! I was a fool AGAIN
I...let my
wall down too soon
Exposed and naive I
allowed him to achieve
his mission
although wasn't
submissin to
his demands...this
Mofo got me trippin!

Thought one day I'd
claim him as my
~mate~
don't want a love with
no love and lust that's
Tainted with mistrust...not my
~fate~

locks too tight
pulling~straining
brain cells...phyche
ain't straight we...
had a horiffic debate and

~last night I cried~

before we met I
was his Queen *thick thick*
Suddenly, I'm a PUNK?
This man is SICK!

This brotha of Masonry's
got me...
somewhat confused about
what's true
based on knowledge and truth or
christianity?
Lord...are you hearin' my plea?
Refuse to be his case of
charity.
Wondering what dream he's
chasin'
facin' my
reality I'm...AGAIN claimin the Lord
GOD as my
All~in~All as I...

WAIT, DELIGHT AND ABIDE...
ON HIM, IN HIM, AND BY HIM...

like an anthropologist
searching~
probing~
soil for artifacts I'm...
searching~
probing~
my soul for the
PeaceLoveN'Happiness
I deserve

~last night I cried~

because I realized that I don't need a man to validate me or
make me feel complete.

*just another baby step into my spiritual/emotional freedom*


(c)2001EssenceofAminata all rights reserved
 
Dry your eyes
you don't have to cry
for he wasn't meant for you
his declarations of love was not true

he's a liar and a thief not a real man at all
he trying to be a playa, but he can't even dribble the ball
no respect for you if he treats you this way
there is no devotion in the words that he say

brotha of masonry, 3rd or 33rd degree
no excuse for the way he treats a queen
once you were his lady
but now he talking crazy

too many issues going on
let the brother have his swan song
pluck his image from your memory and heart
its time to dance to a new beat and move on to a new start

Love has not been denied
you don't have to cry
For your King cometh sooner than you realize
and it is with HE that your soul shall fly.
 
Well...

I think there comes a time in everyones life but also for a sistah (((UNDERGROUND)))(that's my new word!) to realize that and to love yourself and not have to fish for compliments and things of that nature to make you feel good about yourself or whole. I'm still learning and it's not as easy as I intended. Some of the reasons why it's hard to feel good about myself is the past and things that went on in my family that I couldn't do anything about. And being a young woman still affects me today into "womanhood" and the way that view myself based on that. So... I still have to love me for me and pray that the Lord will heal me and enable me to forgive and move forward. So I can really appreciate myself for what I am. Wow... YOu just made me think about something! Well,I hear ya!,Loud and clear. Don't give up. Everthang's going to be alright!(((HOLD OUT!)))
Sincerely,
Desert Storm
 
thank you Bishop

for the love and support! Actually this guy was a friend who offered to assist me in my move to NYC. He started to change in attitude, disposition and his respect for me. I was supposed to be there this weekend but for obvious reasons, I never made it. Now, on to my next plan.

*just want to reiterate--He wasn't my man*
 
Desert...

I feel us vibin on that underground rumble. Can you feel it? I'm relating to everything you've said more than you know. It's funny how you think you're the only one until you share your story.

Thanks for the love DS and I believe in my heart that everything IS going to be alright!!
 

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