krazelyricks said:Actually yes, I have. I told him around one this morning. He said he needs time to figure us out. He said he loves and wants to be with me but I need to figure out what I want. When I told him I wanted HIM, he told me he's not sure anymore though. After he told me this he got up to look for his friend so they could fight. I broke down crying and he held me for about a hour or so though on my porch rocking me gently. It's been a whole year. We've been TOGETHER for a whole year. I couldn't believe I blew it over something so stupid. Is a kiss cheating? Jevon is a sensitive man because he cried one time at the BEGINNING of the relationship when I told him I didn't want him anymore because I didn't want anything serious with him so I'm sure I broke his heart. I know if he does decide to take me back that it won't be the same as before. He won't trust me as much anymore. There might not be any trust at all. I don't know. I'm still confused. Today they got to fighting and his friend went to jail because he pulled a unregistered gun out on my boyfriend. This is getting too out of hand. After he went to jail my boyfriend came back over my house and I calmed him down. It's going to be more drama when his friend gets out because my boyfriend isn't a punk. Somebody is about to get hurt all over me. I'm trying to calm my boyfriend but he's not listening to me at all. I'm in the middle of something that could have been avoided. ****, I shouldn't have told him.
Part of me is telling myself to shut up and leave this alone and the other part is just analyzing the whole situation and this outcome. Truthfully, no one really really knows you, your boyfriend and his friend. I don't think anyone could have imagined this outcome or they wouldn't have said to tell him, if they truly thought it would come to this.
In a way, one almost feels a little guilty and responsible in trying to help u.
What gets me is that you said "Someone is going to get hurt all over u." I think instead of talking about whether your boyfriend is a punk or not and how your in the middle, you need to put yourself in the front and take responsibility for your part and try to help them come to a resolution without doing harm to each other. I can't stand to see people hurt each other over someone else. You are just as responsible as the friend and they are both still alive at this point so u need to not feel sorry for yourself and try to correct your mistake. Then you turn around and ask is kissing cheating?
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I could be wrong for this post, and after this I'm staying out of anyone's personal life, but I hope you at least try to get out there and do something to correct it instead of feeling sorry for yourself. Take responsibility for your actions.
Peace and love sistah