Knowledge Seed said:
Could you expound on what you meant by "you discovered a knowledge far more greater than you originally sought." Elaborate on this knowledge as much as you can.
Knowledge Seed,
Without sounding as psychodelic as possible, it is a knowledge that is experienced better than it is explained. It is learning without the conventional means. It is what is realized in an excerpt from K. Kia Bunseki Fu-Kiau influential work, "Self-healing power and therapy: Old Teachings from Africa."
"To be initiated is to be ready to accept responsibility, both as a mature human being and as a powerful spiritual being. It is to study fundamental principles that transfer life and its power, a way to have access to the most powerful medicine available to human beings; self-healing power. It is to enter into the process of learning, mu kala, to grow to the full understanding of N'Kingu Mianzingila, (principles of life/living), principles of that could assist one to keep that potential power and to pass it on safely to one's offspring.
"....It is to bulwa meso, to have one's eyes open. To have the power to see, feel, touch, hear and taste what the ordinary way of life does not allow us to see, feel, touch, and hear and taste. ....It is to walk on the path of mastering knowledge in life. It is to be seen and to see oneself before lumweno lwa mampinda ma luzingu ("the mirror of fathomless knowledge of life.') It is learning to see the past in order to predict the future. It is feeling and holding tightly the past segment of the bioenergetic rope in his/her hands to insure its linkage to the future.
"Ghanda ('to be initiate') is to join the circle of the Nganga ('masters') and become, oneself, Nganga, a doer."
Malidoma Some in his book of "Of Water and the Spirit" also talks about his experiences during Baor and the acuteness of his sensory faculties, as well as, his continual learning.
I was once told that initiation removes any blockages and open up all the chakras which is why Lucumi iyawos are so restricted in the year after initiation to avoid contamination. How knows? I do know initiation is not the ends to a means - it is only the beginning, the initiation into a walk on the edge of existence. My knowledge and experiences have been gnostic, very much so. My teachers have been the avatars, the cornerstones of our ancestral traditions - the anthropomorphic creations of energy in constant flux - the ever continuing interplay of contraction and expansion, coolness and hotness.
I recall before my journey into the mirror, I would speak with a certain forcefulness and confidence about certain things at my age I should not have known. One day, a person who can see spirits heard me talking and saw a very old African man standing next to me. She told me that whenever I speak about certain things the rhythm, tone and quality of my voice changes because it is the old man speaking. I later found out who this man was, this old Bantu, a centuries old nganga. This old man shed my blood on the nkisi, making a pact with the dead, etching my skin with the firmas I work through and engraving power patterns in bioenergetic core, forever changing my physical composition. I exist as Kongo, a child of the Vili and Ndongo. I die as Kongo, a child of the Lemba rite.
I learn, I lose myself.
Blackbird (without the secret handshake I don't know you)