I've been told, my words now only scratch the surface, because my past dug deeper, and that I've lost my edge, and that I've become more human, that I don't have the same hunger now, that I did back then, and I wondered, if what I was told, held truth, or if i was just expected to be, some expectation, or former me, because like sex, pain sells too... I've been told, that I've sounded stronger, and more vicious, and barked louder, than i do now, and that what i do now, is good, but it's not, ME, not the ME that they knew, because HE, screamed and holla'd, and acted a fool, to be heard, and made no apologies... So then I said, f*** what you remember of me, I'm still me, greater, expanded, elevated, I still shake fruit from the tree, but now after I eat, I plant the seeds, cause my family too gotta eat, depend on me, and are why I breathe... I said, f*** you for wanting to keep me, in that same place, in that same space, with a young boy look, on my grown man face, without the experience, to even recognize real s***, or real strength, or who my REAL self really is, because you wanna read, a different, kind, of, struggle, because your memory, is greedy... Then I said, this is me NOW, because of who I was THEN, and I'm only dealing, with today, with or without pain, with or without rain, whether you choose, to leave or stay, and I'm gonna love you ANYWAY!!!