Black Poetry : Internal Battle

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  1. Defiantson

    Defiantson Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    Internal Battle

    Being hurt in the past
    Not wanting to be hurt again
    Yet longing for the desire
    To be loved like a cosmic force

    Pushing she away
    Like some strange fruit
    Not because she is not worthy
    Because she haunts my existence

    Making me feel like
    A flower in a garden
    That has been nurtured
    Beauty comes from her

    Still my heart
    At a frenzy
    How she devours
    My inner being

    Breaking down walls
    That have been built
    To keep me save
    Saddened

    Often feeling lonely
    Tormented by selfish ways
    I conjured up my strength
    To make sense of my situation

    Letting her rule my heart
    Would cause weakness
    To my guarded emotions
    Keeping her away falls into place

    This vortex of uncontrollable desire
    Wanting her in ways
    Only imaginable in fantasies
    Where Tantra and the Karma Sutra meet

    Taking control of inner-self
    I the sorcerer of my strength
    Has to depress those feelings
    My mental over-took emotions

    She having no chance
    To intervene in my destine
    Gets pushed away once more
    Her feelings I regret to hurt

    I am sorry
    Not wanting to hurt you
    I have to let you go
    This pain is too great

    Loving me is hard
    Especially since
    I don't know
    What love feels like

    Again I am sorry
    Wanting to hurt you
    Was not the plan
    This safeguard over takes me

    Sanity over love
    My heart yearns
    Yet my mind
    Keeps pushing away
     
  2. IfUComeSoftly

    IfUComeSoftly Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    my mind keeps pushing you away
    yet my heart yearns for the touch
    the taste, the fell of yours
    i'm a rationale woman therefore
    rationality wins where the heart fails
    therefore i'm giving you up...
    therefore i fight my last fight
    with the point of my pen...

    manny...

    i know admitting it
    especially outside the realm
    of pen and paper will never
    gain me the emotional freedom
    i need to love you but hopefully
    writing it here will help me heal
    therefore help me love
    how dificult life can be when
    we attempt to minimize the truth
    my truth is that i love
    my truth is that i'm trying
    not to love you...
    unsuccesfully
    one day i'll look at you
    and you'll see the love in
    my eyes like i see in yours
    one day you'll look at me
    and the hurt in your eyes
    won't force me to turn away
    because you think you know
    that you're in that place alone
    one day you're lovemaking
    won't pull at the strings of my core
    because i won't feel the need
    to sew my feelings away from you
    one day i won't question whether
    or not when you walk of that door
    will it be the last time and think
    are you leaving me?
    one day i'll let my mind fully realize
    you are that wonderful man i call you
    in my heart and in my dreams
    one day i'll wake up and you won't be there
    but before that day comes
    i'm going to leave this letter outside
    the realm of pen and paper
    i'm going to leave it open
    in a place that i know you'll see it
    and read it and know that
    you are not in this place alone
    and you'll know that all you need to do
    to change it is to reassure me
    give me the final affirmation of love...
    and i'll give myself the freedom to love
     
  3. Tantrum

    Tantrum Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    This vortex of uncontrollable desire
    Wanting her in ways
    Only imaginable in fantasies
    Where Tantra and the Karma Sutra meet
    ^^^
    my fav part

    this was a hot piece poet much love
     
  4. Defiantson

    Defiantson Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    thank you both for your dope comments. I appriciate the love.
     
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    $$RICH$$ Lyon King Admin. STAFF

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    This was pure and awesome verse by verse poet
     
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    watzinaname Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    You probably flowed more than a few people's thoughts onto the page with your vivid phrases. Terrific scribe poet, and a great flow back from Ifucomesoftly as well.
     
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    Defiantson Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    Conflict makes for some awesome poetry here.

    Well done, "Son".
     
  9. Defiantson

    Defiantson Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    Thanks for the dope comment fam...
     
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