We came back from the hotel.... with a little grin on our face.... We finaly had our second good laugh together.... while we listened to the sound of the carribian band... guessing songs..... She introduced me to the man with the Pan..... you know she said you never know get to know some mucisions here on the island just to do some gig somethimes just to jam... on our way back i looked at her ... Its nice to hear her laughing inspide of the sadness and captivity in her eyes.... its nice to see her smile.... she got to shine... lord bring her to the light... she gots to shine... Suddenly i thought about the beautifull bartender... Owiee whoms smile can light up a room... who said to her "'you dont remember me again huh i,m youre neighbour"" and i looked at my mom with with big open eyes .."'you can not reme,ber him lol is that youre neighbour ...like i wanted to shake her up wake up woman ....!!lol and he ssaid ""yes you dont reme,ber me again ...i,m youre neighbour ""me looking at her "'oh that is youre neighbour "' and he said "'is that youre daughter ... me yes i am... and i was thinking tea ,tea, tea,mom tea.. lol than i though oh o maybe he is married... than he said ""yes i waved manny times when i passed by youre house ,i waved"" Wow he even waved in all those years mom you lived here..... i was thinking ,mom look around you... I took a moment to look at myself at my behavior.. was i also like that... being blinded by this "one man" not opening up yourself for someone else..? NO NO DEFENATLY i opend my self up.. ones this soul said.... ""i dont remember , there is nothing , i defenatly opend myself up for others .Oh jes my soul search around (still)Opend myself up oh yeah i did Lord knows..Yes yes ..The painterman ,the Cubaman, The poetman...The GVBman...... yes i open up i didnt got stuck on this man....... you know i moved on ,the man wanted me to let go of him... no i almost though is was the sisterfriendholland painterman ... but i opend up..... (hurt tough) while we were were driving it became silent... but it was a good silence... there is a little oase now... and i prayed for it.... that bad spirrit that was standing between us... the ussing spirrit..(that almost wanted to kill me it doesnt matter whom he takes to use ,could me trough youre family stranger friend ,) the racial spirrit... I asked for the lord to break it in jezus name and i believe he did... we are not there yet but all is calm now.... and i live by the day.... she needs to shine... she needs to shine... she needs to be set free...... i need to be set free..... i am free honest i am free.... but somthimes when she bleeds .. i bleed.... i need to be strong..