Black Poetry : In My Mind

[BallOfConfusion]

i've built up this relationship in my head that is slowly starting to crumble.
wait no **** that, this **** i feel aint make believe
you kiss me
& call'd me ur boo
hug'd me & held me
all along sayin i'd never leave you
so we spent a few weeks apart
but the whole the only thing i could think of was you
o i cant wait to get back and kiss u, & to have u hold me
but u left me waitin
& waitin
& waitin
so finally i call u
u sound'd happy to see me
but when i look'd into your eyes
i knew the girl in your life was no longer me
you didnt hold me or touch me the way you use to
so i figured hey,he dont want me i'll move on
but i cant
i try harder but i cant
it's something holdin me near...
it's...
it's you give'n me false kiss's by the door
callin me your boo
make'n me beleive wat we had was true
keepin me just for backup - or watever
maybe it was just simply your amusement
that you could have somebody so dumb fonded
head over the hills crazy in love with you
wow it's a year later & i'm still writting stupid love poems for you
over this relationship, i thought we could'a had
which apparently you pretend to never remember
i dont know maybe i'm just readin to much into it
here we are a year later and i'm just wonder which way things are gonna go this time
i keep sayin i'm over you
& when i actually convince myself that i am here you come with your false kisses
callin me your boo
it's just a matter of me havin the will power to reject you
everytime you kiss me
or even do something as simple as hold my hand
this is all the this i'm think'n in the back of my head
is it real this time
i'm not fallin for it
does he want me
do i want him
ew! why is he touchin me
it feels soo good
but i dont want this
i dont even like him anymore
but it feels soo good
i hate u but i love u - as a friend

 

[watzinaname]

Having your feelings played with is no joke. Getting over someone is more than a notion, takes time for feelings to change. Potent piece.

 

[queentswana]

He appear to be flirting with "Murphy's Law" ...It won't be a very pretty site when the boomerang come at him...
Believe this, it will come.
keep ya head up poet...great write.