- Jul 2, 2014
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Alright, I was adopted when I was 3 by a white family, I'm 16 now.
My entire life me being black and what comes with that was never hidden. I mean, they were the first to tell me about how bad black people had it and everything. They gave books to read on African history. They wanted me to know I'm black.
They owned horses, so I grew up riding them, my older sister and me always went out on them.
My parents own a great collection of music, from folk to rap to teen pop. Everything.
I mean, it's a white household obviously. A white Catholic, Republican household.
Last year we moved down south to a town in Alabama, coming from Denver it was very different.
When I started school it was like the black kids hated me.... They just treated me so differently. Like I'm just in a totally different world than them. I try to be nice to everybody but they just didn't like me.
The first time I was approached I was asked "why do you try to be white?". That increased even more when I said I didn't like Obama, that went over terribly.
My entire life i thought I was black, you know. I just did what I always enjoyed doing. A lot of them turn out to be "white people things" that I guess I shouldn't be doing?
I thought I would fit in perfectly in a more black community, considering I lived in a heavy white and Asian area.
I started hearing a lot about light skin and darkskin, I never knew it was such a big deal. I was told I'm not black enough, I didn't think I was "more black" but I definitely thought I was "black enough".
I was homeschooled every year until 10, but I still had friends. I don't think I'm to much of an outsider.
So, now I'm confused, am I doing something wrong? I mean, I understand I probably come from a different background than them, but I'm still black, I couldn't be THAT different right?
I walk down the street people won't know my parents are white, but they'll know I'm a black kid though.
My entire life me being black and what comes with that was never hidden. I mean, they were the first to tell me about how bad black people had it and everything. They gave books to read on African history. They wanted me to know I'm black.
They owned horses, so I grew up riding them, my older sister and me always went out on them.
My parents own a great collection of music, from folk to rap to teen pop. Everything.
I mean, it's a white household obviously. A white Catholic, Republican household.
Last year we moved down south to a town in Alabama, coming from Denver it was very different.
When I started school it was like the black kids hated me.... They just treated me so differently. Like I'm just in a totally different world than them. I try to be nice to everybody but they just didn't like me.
The first time I was approached I was asked "why do you try to be white?". That increased even more when I said I didn't like Obama, that went over terribly.
My entire life i thought I was black, you know. I just did what I always enjoyed doing. A lot of them turn out to be "white people things" that I guess I shouldn't be doing?
I thought I would fit in perfectly in a more black community, considering I lived in a heavy white and Asian area.
I started hearing a lot about light skin and darkskin, I never knew it was such a big deal. I was told I'm not black enough, I didn't think I was "more black" but I definitely thought I was "black enough".
I was homeschooled every year until 10, but I still had friends. I don't think I'm to much of an outsider.
So, now I'm confused, am I doing something wrong? I mean, I understand I probably come from a different background than them, but I'm still black, I couldn't be THAT different right?
I walk down the street people won't know my parents are white, but they'll know I'm a black kid though.