Black Poetry : I'm Scared

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  1. poeticlyspeakin

    poeticlyspeakin Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    i'm going so fast and its a struggle to stop
    i pray that you've got to dream and suffer to get to the top
    i just want to walk away and never look back
    i have enough sense to recognize the pain, but not enough sense to react
    my tears
    and my fears
    separate me from my peers
    my scars
    and this heart
    make life a little hard

    and im scared...
    of not knowing...
    of not seeing...
    of not believing...
    that life will get better....

    i'm tired of giving and not recieving what i'm due
    i've learned promises are made, but never come through
    i've been living among lies, i'd do anything for the truth
    i'm just waiting to see what pathway god decides to choose
    these eyes
    and my pride
    is the reason why i'm dying inside
    these hands
    and my plans
    want to do something to make people understand

    that i'm scared...
    of not hearing...
    of not thinking...
    of not feeling...
    that the power of love will help...

    i want to wash my hands and cleanse my life
    thats filled with b*ll****, confusion, and strife
    love has caused more pain than bliss
    if mutual respect is out there, i never knew it exists
    my backward friends
    and these dead ends
    give me the ambition to get revenge
    my anger
    and these associates a.k.a strangers
    clears these thoughts like an eraser

    im scared...
    of moving on...
    of not moving on at all...
    of deleting...
    every thing and one that made me...

    i'm stuck in one place, because my mind wont set me free
    these dayz keep f*cking with me and time wont let me be
    i thought i found a soul to confide in, but it was just a mirage
    then i decided to keep my emotions stored like a garage
    my frustration
    and my insinuations
    cause more break downs than celebrations
    this cage
    and my rage
    only sends me through a maze

    im scared...
    of falling...
    of rising...
    of gliding...
    but who knows if i;ll do anything...?

    i'm tired of supplying the motivation, while others shoot me down
    i want to stay secure, because i'm tired of moving around
    i'm divided into pieces, i just want to have some kind of balance
    because i've faced and overcome every single challenge
    but these ropes
    and my hopes
    seem distant as i watch them float
    my fingertips
    and these risks
    have caused more damage than the wolf and three little pigs

    im scared...
    of giving too much
    of not giving enough...
    of not proving myself...

    you see all of my anger
    but you refuse to see that... i'm just a scared little girl...
     
  2. marylo

    marylo New Member MEMBER

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    SIMPLY BRILLIANT...I COULD NOT STOP READING...AND FEELING..GOOD JOB
     
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    triniti424 Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    wow poetically...dis was a great read :)
     
  4. poeticlyspeakin

    poeticlyspeakin Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    thank u marylo and triniti...
     
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    OOOH, you spit it like this just came directly from your heart. I know you were feeling this. I'm awestruck.
     
  6. poeticlyspeakin

    poeticlyspeakin Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    thanks true love...
     
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    holy crap.......this was so good...i felt all your emotion in this(i always do):)
     
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    Oh my.............Poetic

    you took me on an all to familiar journey here........I've felt this way
    so many times........and occasionally I still do...I truly felt this
    You put this together so naturally..."Phenomenally"

    I loved it! Encore, Encore, Encore!
     
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    amongst the pieces of
    broken promises just
    lying there are
    crumbs of faith,
    within the rivers of
    dissappointment flowing at
    your feet are
    sediments of hope,
    when fear beats in your
    heart like your own
    blood, paralyzing
    your intent,
    your feet
    keep walking,
    darkness will be
    overcome by light
    the strong always
    win the fight
    pain hurts the
    tender heart but
    brings so
    much wisdom,
    stay true and
    steadfast
    this time
    won't last
     
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    poeticlyspeakin Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    thanks SwtT, angelicsage, and gempis. Im glad u can feel me...
     
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