Black Poetry : I'm Hurt.. but I still love you

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  1. HODEE

    HODEE Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    Last night
    We had our first fight
    Today I am still wondering how to recover

    I thought
    I am not going to speak to her or see her again until spring.
    But I know that is too long
    I have no power against your song,
    The words you say when we meet

    Last night
    I said
    I miss you so much!

    You said I miss you too!

    You said you were so glad I stopped by
    To spend a few hours with you

    Then I said " Call me because I am ready to do what ever
    This relationship seems to be up to you."

    That wasn't nice

    Did I push?
    Do I want more than you can give?

    Then we danced
    Talked about possibilities
    I asked about romance

    Now I am going to tell you
    Just what hurt me late last night?

    What you asked was a fair question

    But it took me by surprise
    It made me think you see suspicious
    It made me say I'll back off

    When I offered to help you financially
    You said you couldn't be bought

    That hurt!

    Then you questioned and asked me.
    Why I want and do
    So much for you?

    Fair question, first I need one answer from you
    What is your fear?

    The worst that could happen is you
    Give me you,
    And I continue to cherish you
    You are a woman, I am a man
    If we join, connect copulate
    It's part of the plan

    For now I told you I won't push nor demand


    I know you have been in bad relationships
    Your in one now you have said
    I don't push
    I don't insist
    I have been patient
    Let me clear my head


    You need things
    I know I have offered

    I may have said you can take the whole thing

    You mean that much to me love
    Mine comes back two fold and never stops.

    I am going to write you today
    Hotmail, yahoo... which did you say
    Honestly I don’t want to write you

    I want to make love to you
    I want you here with me today

    You no longer have your cell
    I keep offering to buy you service and pay the bill

    I want to talk with you
    Hear your voice
    If we can’t meet like were doing here tonight
    It's been three maybe four weekds since we were together
    Its like your showing up because rent is due
    I'm not stupid
    Love blinded yet!
    I should be asking why are you stalling or stringing me along

    Because I would rather be holding you

    If I call your house he may answer
    He isn’t even paying rent and the bills
    You are
    That for you is an unnecessary hell!

    You questioning me and my intentions
    I'm Hurt because he isn’t paying your rent

    I give you hundreds when we meet
    I would do anything to provide and you’re not mine
    I love the time you do have to sneak away and spend

    Because when you’re with me I see your heart
    I am above board
    I have no hidden agenda
    I want to help you

    I pay for our hours together
    Drinks and cost to get in the clubs

    I offer to take you shopping
    I have bought you perfumes and clothes

    I filled your tank so you have plenty of gas
    I don’t want to hear you were standed on the road

    I pay for the dinner
    I have movie passes

    Red lobster my sweet
    I’ll go there.. where ever

    It isn’t Mickey “D “ for you
    It’s say what ever
    It’s yours my lover

    What it is your wondering what is in this for me!

    The prize is your time, your heart and you!

    It’s been a few years and I am still waiting.
     
  2. watzinaname

    watzinaname Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    Hodde, this tugged...no yanked at my heart strings. Your words wer so genuine. When people are still in that getting to know you phase, someone could say something hurtful, without really meaning to. But yes that love is still there, and your plea is earnest. This was potent.
     
  3. Da Street So'ja

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    yes things can take a bad turn

    ups and downs are the norm

    but your commitment is what carries you

    if there's no room for compromise which is a sub level of commitment

    and why bring it too a level of where it becomes a total cut off

    i don't understand but people have to do what they do

    hey man i feel you here poet

    thanks for sharing

    good luck
     
  4. HODEE

    HODEE Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    Thank you Watz

    Thank you Watz
    You are so right.

    " When people are still in that getting to know you phase, someone could say something hurtful, without really meaning to. "

    The getting to know each other phase is so critical. It is a time when the truth should be stated. Questions asked shouldn't make or cause a fight.

    In this flow I write about how I was taken by surprize, for she never came at me this way before. She wasn't upset either after I pointed out all of the shortcomings I felt she allowed me to garner while we explored each other.

    The things I gave are minor compared to what she gives me.. she radiates... energy and love. I like a sponge absorb it and unfortunately I dry out and want more.

    I haven't made love to her.. I am going to keep my insurance paid. if I ever do... I know I am going to just die becuase I will be in heaven.

    I spoke to her and she clarified. She said.. " you can't bribe me " now we were talking about some serious things and some crazy thoughts started flying. the music was so loud... the whole night was wierd and she agreed.

    Our growth was stronger than words. No limits on conversation. Truth has to reign.

    She apologized. She weakened me again.. smiled at me... again. whispered my name. I am a sucker for her love...
     
  5. HODEE

    HODEE Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    You are wise

    So'ja
    Thanks for your insight.

    " ups and downs are the norm

    but your commitment is what carries you

    if there's no room for compromise which is a sub level of commitment

    and why bring it too a level of where it becomes a total cut off

    i don't understand but people have to do what they do "


    With this lady. I would go thru the ups and downs... Loves roller coaster. I bought this ticket and she has the lever to control how fast this ride goes. She has the authority to say this ride is over.:weights:

    Compromise as you say is a subpart of a commitment.

    In a relationship of any kind. The opportunity is always present. One must compromise. In a rivalry one must compromise. On the job, in a regular friendship, or a love interest compromise or the ability to compromise is important.

    Your very wise point “why bring it too a level of where it becomes a total cut off “

    Is well taken.

    Thanks
     
  6. queentswana

    queentswana Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    Hodee, Hodee, hodee...
    I could say: "Nice piece" ...and keep it moving, but I kinda can't do it just like that.
    Well, the love you share with , or better words "for' another reads more like a "Remote" kinda love to me...smh
    Why would her mind ever be made up when she have the best of both worlds? ...the only way to gain and earn her love is to take 5 steps back! Yes, love hurts when it's not given in an equal manner, but from what I read, it's like you pay the bills...while he get the thrills!!
    Do think about it.
     
  7. Zulile

    Zulile Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    ^^ditto QueenTswana^^

    If this peice is any reflection of something real - then yes - 5 steps back, u-turn - and run.

    :heart:
    (it is a nice write)
     
  8. HODEE

    HODEE Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    Great reply Queentswana
    Yes it could be considered a remote love. Something possibly out of reach, a love that will never be attained. Or that may never materialize. So much not said. So much not shared.

    Eyes wide open. Thanks
     
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