I f I could have had the mother I wanted she would have been the one to raise me and teach me all she knew. She wouldn’t have been my best friend or ever tried to be, Momma, the word stands alone you see. She would have guided me protected me and taught me right from wrong, I would have learned survival lessons not just how to get along. If I could have had the mother I wanted we could have talked for hours on end, Building a solid bond that wouldn’t break nor bend. If I could have had the mother I wanted maybe there would have been less pain, For the bonds mothers and daughters share are different, no two are the same. If I could have the mother I wanted maybe in my adult years I still wouldn’t yearn, For the love of a mother should be given and not earned. If I could have had the mother I wanted I wouldn’t have to hide that little girl inside of me that still breaks down and cry. I never would have been angry with God and asked Him why? I never received the mother I wanted but got the one I was given, And though one time angry and resentful all is now forgiven.