Black Poetry : I Will Miss You ( for my ex and friend , Ja)

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  1. SwtT

    SwtT Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    As I sit here at my computer
    Trying not to shed any tears,
    I am thinking back upon the past
    Looking at the last two years.
    When I first met you at the movie theather,
    I thought you were a little lame
    Running after me to catch up
    And run a little game.
    But I did get to know you
    and we had a little fun
    Talked on the phone , joking around
    The good times.
    Well, we went together for a while
    And it seemed that it wouldn't work out.
    But after the break-up we remained friends
    There was no need to shout.
    And that was acutally cool for us
    You boosted my self-esteem
    You tried to get back up with me
    and I told you in your dreams.
    Last night, I called your cell phone
    I hadn't talked to you in about 7 weeks
    So imagine my surprise
    When I heard your mother speak
    I asked for you, she asked me who I was
    I told her that I was your friend
    She asked me where I was at that moment.
    I told her about to go out with a friend.
    She asked me was I sitting down
    I told her yes I was and felt my heart go still
    She told me on May 14, 2004
    That you were shot and killed.
    I was on such a state of shock...
    I almost thought it was a joke
    But I heard your mother's voice on the other end
    and I listened while her heart broke.
    She told me that it was a friend of yours
    That was playing around with a gun
    It popped on accident;went thru your heart
    Before she knew it, you were gone
    Im crying now because you didn't have to die
    All because he made a choice
    He chose to play with a gun and in so,
    Forever silenced your voice.
    It pisses me off and makes me so sad
    You were her only child, her baby son
    And a friends accident cost you your life
    And now what can I say now that your gone?
    I will never talk to you again
    Never have a conversation with you on the phone
    Never laugh with you again.
    Becuase of a dumb teenagers choice....you are gone.
    I will miss you a lot
    I will miss everything about you.
    I will go on with my life
    But I will never forget you.
    and yes family........this story is unfortunately......true.


    ~ R.I.P JaBoo~
    ~1985-2004~
     
  2. queentswana

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    Dear SwtT...
    First let me say I'm so sorry to hear of such a horrible end to a presious life. But his spirit will forever live. Your friendship is something good you can hold on too. And live your life to the fullest, as he would want you to do.
    All my blessings to you.
     
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    SwtT Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    Queentwana,
    Thank you so much. I really need to hear that. I just found out his death yesterday and it shakes me to think of it. I remember the last time I talked to him, it took so long for me to call him back....and when I did....Psigh:....But true, his spirit will forever live. Please keep his mother in your prayers
     
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    I sure will keep her and you in my prayers...that goes without saying. As for you, ...*sighing*...you are so very young, and yes I know the pain you're feeling right now, but, whenever the pain come just think about something the two of you did together that was silly or off the hook, and just smile and know that he's smiling too. Both you and his mother will be just fine, for...time heals all wounds. And if you want...I'm here, you can feel free to "pm" me 24/7...that's on the real.
     
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    This is so very sad. I like you also lost someone like this. He was my first love in fact. That incident changed my love forever and cause me to leave the game alone. I am very sad for you and I pray for you and the person you lost. Much luv SwtT and keep ya head up ma.
     
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    Thank you queen....:grouphug: I really appricate it.

    Foxi, how are you feeling girl? Thig guy was one of my buddies you know? My friend. We tried a relationship and it just didn't work out for us but we were cool you know. The last time we talked he was trying to make me be his prom date and I told him I couldn't spend that much money again....to get a date from his own school. And to think you lost your first love while I just lost a friend. Girl how did you ever get thruough it? Im over here, so mad and crying that it happened to him. I still hear his mom telling me. She sounded so strong and I thank God for that. But there I was, in my friends living room, totally in shock. I seriously expected for a minute for him to come on the phone and be like" Ma, I'm palying" but it never was and it stings you know? Thank you for praying for me, just keep praying for me and his mom and without a doubt I will keep my head up
     
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    sadly tale of such i'm very sorry to hear this swtT ........
    he will forever remain in sweet memories ...GOD will hold u
    and his family
     
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    Thank you Rich...all I can do is cry it out and accept it and he will be remembered
     
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    On the one hand, you wrote this so clearly detailing the emotions felt, so well written. On the other, it saddens me to know this happened. I am sorry. God will keep you, his mom and everyone who loved him, in his care.
     
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    Thank you . I appricate you reading my piece and offering me some comfort
     
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