Black Poetry : i stand outside...

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  1. baller

    baller Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    I Stand Outside

    Through the haze of morning’s fog
    I see vague images of wholesome things
    And deeper things
    Like “hopes,” and “dreams”
    Where “THE BLUES” man sings
    The pain of my sorrow

    ~ But tomorrow finds me sinking still

    From my periphery vision window sill
    I see a wandering soul
    Lurking through the tunnels of (untold) time

    MY CRIME…

    I stand outside

    I stand outside MY WORLD
    Looking through ONE-WAY mirrors of OPAGUE SADNESS
    Praying for a way back to my gladness

    I stand outside

    I stand outside a LISTLESS HEART
    Looking for a start
    …My start
    To a better life
    …A loving wife

    “She will bring joy into my life,” I thought

    I stand outside

    I stand outside the home of my CRIPPLED HEART
    Not doing my part
    Not carrying the weight of my FRACTURED ACHES
    Nor seeking the possibility of a SOUL MATE

    I stand outside

    I stand outside the doorway of greatest stress
    Under the weight of
    UNFULFILLED PROMISES
    And wasted dreams
    All I could do was scream my frustration…so

    I SCREAMED…

    I screamed my pain
    At the string of broken hearts I’ve attained
    From bratty little kitty cats (with no brains)
    Did all I could do…to maintain
    But I could maintain…no more

    Yes…I screamed

    I screamed my DISCONTENTMENT at life’s ugly scent
    ‘Til my brain was fried and my lungs…spent

    And I could scream…no more

    I stand outside

    I stand outside the ENTRY-way to eternal joy
    Beyond the river of jovial contentment

    Waiting

    Peaceful calm melted glaciers of deeply-felt iciness
    Over the abundance of pain gained
    From relationship’s strain

    I stand outside

    I stand outside the vision of a rich man’s world
    Fending for a girl (I can never have)
    Due to past lives
    And broken cries
    And wandering eyes
    And playa crimes
    And an insurmountable list of “He’s so bad,” things
    That women like her can’t even dream (of)

    I stand outside

    I stand outside the “gateway”
    Of a “you and me” fusion parleyed into
    Love paid off…but not won
    COZ the “gateway” wouldn’t open unto my (kinda) fun

    I stand outside

    I stand outside the river’s way to true happiness
    I’m not like the rest
    …Not blessed with the gift of gab
    Draped in da dreaded drab ~ Isn’t an attraction for the masses
    Was never first in any of my classes
    Not flashy…or charismatic
    Love was never automatic (for me)

    I stand outside

    I stand outside the fringes of polite society
    Trying to be the man my momma prayed I’d be
    Didn’t want me thinking people be afraid of me
    Lest they lay in wait…for me
    Waiting to say
    “May He Rest In Peace,”

    TODAY

    I stand​
     
  2. watzinaname

    watzinaname Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    This was quite touching, so much to say about this piece. You talk of screaming...screaming is good, better to directly face what you're feeling, then to try to sweep it all under a rug. I tried doing that, and it didn't work out very well. I could highlight ever verse, but I chose this one:
    And there is more than one queen out there, unique and blessed in her own way like you, who will cherish you. Appreciated this flow brother poet.
     
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    You've already fought the hardest battle, ...of releasing it. Anything after that can/will just get better. And always know that you never "Stand Alone".
    Awesome piece poet...your ship is on the way, you will master it well.
     
  4. baller

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    battles fought and over come...

    speaks to the depth of ones soul...and character of his/her heart. we all experience adversity, regardless of its form of dress...or appearance...and, hopefully, we are better for the experience. THANKS for reading me.
     
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    This was a wonderfully written,emotional piece that is well felt, in your words I saw the pain, though you stand outside, my spirit, invites you in.
    Be Blessed!
     
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    To stand outside reflecting on our adversities & a longing for true love, one can only hope that to peer so deeply inside ourselves is the beginning of growth, repentance and........finally acceptance.

    Hopefully, in that journey we discover our worth and know we deserve so much more.

    A beautifully soul stirring piece, Baller


    epiphany:heart:
     
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    O'my brother you stand ...this piece reminds me of myself so much
    I felt so much from this here that gave me chills .....all i can do us bow in your honor
    as you continue to stand wow!!!!
     
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    baller Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    there's a rumble in the jungle...

    ...a raging on the river...that makes LIFE a guessing game...as we deal with the whims of the insane...as well as the gentle breezes of the kind hearts. it's all a part of the EVERYDAY...and the way WE live.

    the river floweth
     
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    From "standing outside" to "standing," this story is an engrossing tale that pulls the reader in like a movie with flashing scenes and the soundtrack of your life. The emotion and imagery and reflection and hope and strength is all so powerful and vivid.


    Loved it!
     
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    baller Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    i'm glad it moved you...

    THANKS for reading.:)
     
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