Black Poetry : I Put Him Down

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  1. Amun-Ra

    Amun-Ra Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    He didn’t know what waited
    behind the sterile door, but I did.
    Knowing he walked wherever I led,
    such a trusting friend and I put him down.

    My dad and my dog are dying.
    Today it is my dog. I put him down.
    They say it is better, such for suffering
    shouldn’t prolong and I put him down.

    Looking into his chocolate face
    I could see it, even in the glaucoma
    I could see and I know so could he
    and still, I put him down.

    Now my face is contorted
    with self-pity and pain at our loss,
    but I did what I had to do but,
    my guilty heart still shouts
    out that I put him down.

    All reason, rationale and logic
    Provide no comfort for the demise
    of a trusting friend and chocolate eyes
    when I finally put him down.





    This was a hard one to write because I lost my dog and my dad with 30 days of each other. I haven't ever typed it out. I had to take my dog to the vet to be "put down" because of his suffering with glaucoma. It hurt and still does. I wrote this on a scrap of paper after I left the clinic with tears in my eyes knowing it was over, that I had out him down. Exactly 30 days later my father died of Lou Gherig's Disease. This is the first time I have had the nerve to write anything serious about either one of them. Actually, it wasn't my dog. It was his dog and maybe that is why it hurt so because I knew what was coming.



    Ra

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    I am so very saddened by your double loss, Don. This has been a very trying time with many many twists and turns in your life. You've shared, and in that sharing you've given me wisdom regarding the inevitable experience we all must face with elderly loved ones. I admire your courage through it all. I applaud your willingness to endure, come what may. You stepped forward not only out of duty, but in love and devotion ~

    Thank you so much for having the courage to share this. My heart and my prayers go out to you during your berievement. The steadfast, loving spirit through which you gave and administered, and ministered to your Dad in his last months during the most challenging moments, will be rewarded through your own sons, and their children. You have set the example for your family.

    Well done.

    Much love to you, :heart:

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    SO SAD WELL FELT !!! MY HEART SEND DEEP SYMPATHY
    THE LOST OF WHAT WAS SO CLOSE TO ONE'S HEART
    LEAVES AN EMPTY SPACE ..........U R IN MY PRAYERS
     
  4. Amun-Ra

    Amun-Ra Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    Appreciate It

    It is one of those things where you continually hold your breath, only you are not aware that you are doing it--and then finally you exhale and it all comes to the top and reminds us that none of us get out of here alive and that death is a part of life--that's just the way it is--I miss my dad and his dog, but I am a better person for because of the lessons I learned, even from his dog--Ra
     
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    I had to post to this....You have my most deepest sympathy in your loss.......My prayers will be with your family and especially you.....

    Peace be unto you and Peace be multiplied
    Bishop
     
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    My prayers and sympathy are with you in this heavy moment.

    BE
     
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    Amun-Ra Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    Thanks y'all

    Was just dropping a line that I wrote almost two months ago--just never had the guts--Ra
     
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    IT'S AWAYS HARD TRUST ME I KNOW BEEN ON THIS PATH
    MY HEART IS OPEN YET FILL WIT PAIN .......PRAYERS BE WITH U
    BRUTHA Ra........
     
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    Ain't it strange

    ain't it strange how one thing can make you think of another and how that thing seems to bring it all back?

    Ra

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    Dear Scribe , so sorry!

    I share in your sadness, and I celebrate your courage to discuss what must truly be painful for you. But, "weeping goes on for a night..." I pray that you will find solace in the renewing of your spirit that when..."The names of those we love are written on our
    hearts..."they will always be remembered". Not all my own words but you know what I am saying. I being a pet owner had a hard time reading once I realized what it was about,cause that is something we never want to have happen to our canine companions/children, my pet is my joy and my therapy as is my
    writing! God bless and keep you is my Prayer...as always!
    BLESSINGS ON YA HOUSE!
     
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