- Aug 11, 2004
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Man I saw my girl yesterday..well in all honesty she is not my girl but she is a woman that I love (for some unknown reason ) above all others. I first saw this woman two and a half years ago and from the first time I saw her I loved her...it's real.....never said anything to her because of a situation I was in but thought about her daily and I mean daily....was at church one day about a year later and who do I bump into but old girl...man I thought I was going to faint....spoke talked for a minute but nothing more..am honestly afraid of this woman...feel too much for her..so finally started talking to her went out a few times and was really feeling fresh...decided to not be my normal self so didn't play any games was completely honest and open with this woman...told her exactly how I felt and how long I'd been feeling like this..man I mean I feel her when she's not around smell her, hear her taste her lips yall feeling what I'm saying...anyway....we have two days that are wonderful beautiful..perfect days..you know hand holding days...talking about life days..regrets, dreams, hopes..the whole deal...the next day she says " I can't see you anymore" ok long story short...I saw her yesterday in passing and she wouldn't even look at me ..I mean cut her eyes away like I have an extra hand coming out of my forehead....and we were maybe two feet apart...she won't even talk to me on the phone...this is the wildest thing I've ever experienced a real trip.....I never did anything to wrong this woman only gave of myself..mind body and soul...but I can't tell if she broke because of me being me or she was starting to get more emotionally than she wanted...I mean I used to feel the emotion when we touched or even at times when wouldn't speak we'd just sit and look at one another hugged up....we would talk 3 or 4 times a day...once she needed somebody to talk to and called me at 1:30 in the morning we didn't get off until I had to leave to take my kids to school at 7:30 and now she won't answer the phone when I call won't talk to me at all and won't even look at me...not to sound like an oversensitive man but this has never happened to me never not even with the mother of my kids ..I'm sad to not be able to be with her but happy that I've gotten to experience this feeling for real....most times I wouldn't care one way or another ...maybe it's just karma huh.......anyway I'm just wanting to know what the sista's think about this..I mean do you think could it be something that I did but didn't know it to turn somebody off like this or could it be that she's afraid to fall in love I mean real Love and just decided to completely get away from the thing she's afraid of.....anyway any advice yall can throw a brother I'd appreciate....maybe I should go back to doggin at least that way I didn't feel vulnerable and open....Holla at ya boy....
Mississippi Red
Mississippi Red