I'm a 27 year old female, and I'm in a very dark place in my life right now. I think that things have finally mounted on my spirit and I'm close to breaking. I suppose it has alot to do with my past: When I was younger, around 17, I started to work in a bikini club to make money because I had a few bills and I didn't want to ask my parents for money because they were struggling. We had just sold our house and moved to apartments to get on our feet. I managed to pay all my bills, and to complete college. My family and myself winded up staying in apartments for longer than anticipated, and when I finished college I decided to start my own business to help with monetary obligations, and move us out of apartments because I had good credit. My father did help with my business and it became successful. A few years later I bought a beautiful home, and told my parents that they could have this home and the business if they'd just get along ( I suppose I thought that they fought all the time while I was growing up because of money issues, and I would rectify that situation with my help!), at that time I was 23. I planned to go back to college to obtain a second degree and finally focus on my life and getting a home of my own, however as I was attending school, everything started to change: My dad start having an affair, and ran my business in the ground!! My dad moved out and I took a financial blow. My credit was destroyed, and in order to pay bills, I started dancing again!! My life has been a cycle of pain. I don't really have anyone to talk to. I feel alone and wore out.Currently, things have gotten better, and my business is doing good thanks to God. My dad and mom are finally cordial even though they're apart. I no longer live at home, however, my mom has the house which is fine, and I have another smaller place. Things are still rocky: A couple months ago, my father was arrested, and that nearly killed me. I started usind drugs to ease the pain, but they just make me more depressed. I'm so sad and feel lost. I don't even know where to begin to fix things. I have an okay life financially (now), but none of it matters because I feel empty. Can someone please give me advice