I’m cursed by all these sleepless nights. Got too much pride to let out one of my painful cries. Came up with my own rule by which to abide. Not knowing that the thoughts that reside, would slowly be the cause of my demise. You couldn’t know my troubles. All I know is struggle. If you saw things the way I see them, your stress would double. Sometimes I wonder how it is I mentally survive. Maybe somewhere deep inside I have a constant drive. It must be what’s inside of me that keeps me going on. I knew the love once in my heart couldn’t stay gone. So many times I think I got it. But whenever I figure it out, I always find some bull****. Some day to finally be at peace, now it seems crazy. Trying to see through thick fogs that make my vision hazy. I went the wrong route, I turned around and learned a lesson. I want all my pain gone, But first, Lord, I could use a blessing. There’s a season in our lives, in which things can get a little easy. There’s a season in your life when it’s so hard that you get a little queasy. Just to know love when it’s in sight. To embrace love, I think I might. All dues to the one above, there’s no question. But I really do need a blessing.