Quiet Poetry Lounge : I just can't anymore...

Discussion in 'Black Poetry - Get Your Flow On!' started by mkhaya lo', May 8, 2002.

  1. mkhaya lo'

    mkhaya lo' Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    I run more than I stay...
    I start more than I finish....
    I put capital letters more than I put full stops..
    and I just cant any more.

    I can't pretend that I know what's going on.
    its just a fragment of what I started. I am not finishing this narrow road I can almost hear you say.
    What is my narrow road?
    anymore than the dedication and love that i've given to you?
    if I leave, will you still be there, will I really be leaving you or those that represent you?

    I can't pretend like I'm free anymore becuase I'm not.
    I'm not unhappy either-more like confused.
    I can't leave because I'm proud.
    and it will haunt me what they'll say when I'm gone...
    or even worse-they'll say they knew that someday I would
    leave

    but where can I go without you, who do I become without you? will I really be leaving you or those that represent you?
    can I? can I?
    My chains are around me yet a key away which I hold in my hand.
    What freedom is there without you?
    will I really be leaving you or those that represent you?
    I can't pretend like i"m free anymore because I'm not...
     
  2. alyce

    alyce Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    This is disturbingly beautiful. I am overcome by the angst throughout this piece. And in so many ways, I even understand.

    Thank you for sharing.
    :heart:

    Alyce
     
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    Wow. A very dark yet beautiful piece which flows perfectly.
    I can honeslty relate to what you are saying.
    Great piece. Thank you for sharing.
    *Emma*
     
  4. mkhaya lo'

    mkhaya lo' Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    I am so eternally grateful for other people's insight, becuse when we write, we are inside of what we write. yet when other people read and reply, the layers peel and you begin to see what was inside when you were there...thank you..

    lo'
     
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    this is a beautiful though sad peace....how can we divide the heart when it can only work properly as a whole..

    K
     
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    I feel this most days...

    Thank you for sharing.

    Shade
     
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    $$RICH$$ Lyon King Admin. STAFF

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    well felt piece here sadly sad yet real i feel ya !!
     
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    mkhaya lo' Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    The sadness goes on..but not without hope..
    my longing continues..but not without the ray of light on the horizon..

    my better days to come are keeping me hopeful...yet i don't feel as if I've I am fighting hard enough for you.

    This poem, if I should reveal, as i feel that i can now, is about God. And the way I felt about my relationship with him. I wasn't happy and I felt like my image of God had truelly become man. I was worshipping and pleasing men and not God and that made me angry and somewhat sad...

    lo'
     
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    within true faith is hope and what's
    for thee is for thee as time nears
    one shell have it's glorious day.
     
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    Wow. That was beautiful but sad.
     
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