Thanks for everyones response to this thread. There are things I have experienced and things that I havent because of sacrificing due somewhat of an unusual situation while growing up. In a nutshell for instance when I was around 20 I decided at that time I would replace certain experiences with another way of living because there are certain experiences I wanted to stay away from for fear of emotional trauma due to the bad emotions I was all ready having. I allways wonder what my life would have been like if I chose the other route and if it would have been as bad as I thought. These are the things I wanted to stay clear of from seeing the pain that it caused other people: Jail time, baby mama drama, drinking alcohol, smoking, siblings, marriage, sex, arguments, no job, no money, no friends. Loneliness was the main negative thing that came from all of that I have had a job before and sex but it has been the minimum. Those things were replaced with extreme wisdom, inner peace,some free stuff, sleep time, leisure time, interaction with several angels, a safe soul, a high level imagination especially on the sexual side, no real real bad times I think. Would you have made those substitutions under any circumstance? I am most of the time pleased with how things turned out but I wonder sometimes.