Black Poetry : I don't give a **** anymore

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  1. krazelyricks

    krazelyricks Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    I've always tried to be the best I could be
    When from gansta to an educated lady
    Spreading my drama and **** poetically
    Making my reality
    My passed figuratively
    But my success my main mentally
    Until someone came alone and broke the only strain that held me up literally

    I tried to leave my pass just that, my pass
    Until some brother decided throw it up in my face.........confused he called me...making me feel like such an @ss
    Brought back up my pregnancy and basically compared me to every other girl around my way, fast
    Show and prove, show and prove, that all I kept reading but the energy I couldn't grasp
    The energy I had at first, the mighty, mighty energy I had didn't last

    I don't give a **** anymore
    I wasn't like every around the way girl or whore
    Shoot, I was a leader everywhere I went....I lead a gang called Third Ward
    Thought I was going forward
    But now it seems I should go backwards
    I mean, since it seems it doesn't mean anything that I'm not hard core anymore
    He didn't see me for me, he just caused a mind war
    He caused me to not give a **** anymore

    Never one to disrespect my elders
    But when I choose to speak my mind they jump on me making me feel like a failure
    Pain added by another layer
    Show and prove, Show and prove, yeah I tried to show them I was not like before by respecting my elders
    If I was like before then I would have curse em' like it didn't even matter
    But do they care?
    Do they care?
    Nope, they don't care
    One person tried to hold me up but they all ganged up on me, so why should I care?
    I was made for the hard life but I didn't want to be in it, I wanted to be a care taker
    Helping my race and helping our kids of the future
    Wrote about a hundred poems about this, but do they care?
    Nope, so I don't give a **** anymore, what the **** I care

    They tried to prove to me that they were right
    That what I was saying was wrong and I wasn't thinking right
    To not be thinking right would have been doing what I was doing
    Thugging to fullest, didn't give a **** about robbing
    Stealing
    Being mean and
    Just thugging out chilling
    I had a terrible past and I thought that was behind me but the moment they started comparing me to people that are everything I was, it was torching
    Made me think what I'm doing didn't mean anything
    Why the **** should I change?
    Why should I make succeeding my main
    My main concern when no one cares, no one cares about what keeps me sane
    Think I need to go back to selling rock to show them what true thugs are, man I pain
    But I don't give a **** anymore, just feel pain

    Used to be proud of myself, used to be proud of going to school
    Stopped being a criminal, didn't want to be no fool
    My surrounding community, the projects, was my stool
    It held me up every time I looked at the news, thinking, it could have been you
    It could have been ME, but it wasn't, it made me proud and cool
    But since they compared me to them, might as well be me, when in Rome do as the Romans do
    Ain't that the saying? Might as well follow them too
    I mean, since they want to compare me to them times two
    Cause I don't give a **** anymore fool

    Did you read the thread she started......yeah and so.....throw it in my face again and I'll .......never mind
    I don't care anymore
    It doesn't even worry me anymore
    I'll just go back to my friends, my boys
    Might be thugs, as you say, but now I am too, it's war
    I'm 18 bout to be a soldier
    In this project madness again.......you took me there
    Made me not give a **** anymore!
    Made me not give a **** anymore!!
    Made me not give a **** anymore!!!
    Made me not give a **** anymore!!!!
    Made me not give a **** anymore!!!!!
     
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    $$RICH$$ Lyon King Admin. STAFF

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    alwayz give a hoot
    worry not about there toot
    don't give up continue to rise
    keep ya worth and secret suprise
    pay no mind to the tame
    they can't understand the game
    the mental expression
    da beat of da past
    the flip of words through vision
    don't give up
    don't give up
    don't give up
    hold ya worth
    ur a jewel a woman not a cursed
    poeticly sane happiness claim
    i care i care i care it's my main
    the stain on the glass will be gone
    keep flowing singing ya song
    what u create masterful in depth
    no man can change , noone can break
    don't change or give in to the hoot
    of talking wind just drop it from within

    I feel you more then u know poeticly...
     
  3. krazelyricks

    krazelyricks Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    You know, it's crazy watching your friends, well old ones at least, beggin you to get back in the game and make the loot they throw in your face daily. I've held up though. I got mad as hell when that man talked about my pregnancy. In the thread I said how much it hurt me and that I thought about it everyday, he didn't care, he just compared me to the other people on the streets. If hurting someone else to bring your point across is that important then he can have it. I don't care anymore. I made a mistake. He still didn't care. So I'm like whatever at this point. He wants to talk, I'll give him more to talk about. It's whatever. He's suppose to be an adult but he sure didn't act like one. I'm going to act like one though. I'm going to college so I need to make money. Easy money is the best money. After I make what I need.....man whatever.
     
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    There will always be those
    who disagree
    and wonder why can't she
    think more like me?
    I would have used a different word, but I
    figured, okay you decided to use the word "thug"
    It was your creation not mine, and I appreciated the
    poem's strong message, so I gave you props and a hug
    You will find that some will have
    a problem with what you write
    preferring you to talk about the daylight
    when you'd rather flow about the night
    You know in your heart how you've
    blossomed and grown
    How you want to reach and teach other young
    people, despite all the harshness shown
    Some adults say things in such a way
    that may make you feel bitter
    But if experience has taught you anything yet,
    it's that you are certainly not a quitter
    if you've gotten this far reading this response
    you are probably saying, "Oh, Lordy!"
    But consider this, if you've got this much talent and
    knowledge now, just think where you'll stand by age 40
    I don't think you have stopped caring
    Because in your anger, you haven't stopped sharing
    yourself with us
    I know you want to fuss
    and cuss
    But while you do,
    remember
    they don't really know you....
     
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    If one wish to break another down
    to get a point cross is no friend
    the funky loot toss don't one a boss
    but will in end set up a lost stay on
    point continue to strive we all made
    mistakes but the key is when we
    learn from those mistakes made to
    move pass the yesterday blood spill
    for a tomorrow future that's bright
    i feel ya pain and the vow to vent
    but keep ya worth inside it because
    the choice we make is ours and we
    can rise above all humanly
    don't give up or in i hold faith sista
    Friends can be our worse of kind ....
     
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    Lift your head high...don't let them make you act ugly
    you are a strong young sister you do you....
    your path is already there all you have to do
    is believe lift your head high...wipe your shoulder off

    what dont break us makes us stronger....

    Love ya
    Angel
     
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    Why every time I turn around
    Someone has to bring me down
    Why do every time I walk the streets I walk with a frown
    Seems like I'm screaming and no one hears a sound
    No one hears MY sound

    Feeling like a diamond in the rough every time I express myself
    Got a different way of thinking but it seems I only excel in the classroom with everybody else
    Everybody else
    Martin Luther King wasn't like everybody else
    Nor was Malcom X, they excelled above everyone else
    They had a different way of thinking asides from everyone else

    Things change
    Beliefs change
    But people are so stuck in their ordinary ways they kick down change
    Causing the people who want change to go insane
    And the normal ones to stay the same
    Dang
    Am I really that hard of hearing? Should I stay with the old beliefs because they call themselve managing?
    Or should I stick to my own and stop pretending?
    Should I stop voicing my oppinion?
    Just because the ones that think like me aren't expressing?
    Martin didn't
    He led
    Malcolm didn't
    He led
    When they voiced their oppinions the others followed because they believe the same thing they said
    Why can't I be the same......different....they led

    I feel so empty
    So pained and empty
    Wish I had the power to say what I really think instead of acting so powerless and empty
    But I don't
    That's why I don't give a **** anymore
    It's whatever, if you don't want to hear me out then I won't say anymore
    Instead I'mma be me and you gon' be you too, whoever soar soars
    If I turn up dead tomorrow I would feel content with my decision not to care anymore
    Because I said what I said and I meant it too.....even as I write this poem my friends are knocking at my door
    Should I answer or not??? Ummmm.........
     
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    Sister how can such a beautiful, articulate young lady be so sad and hurting. Beautiful sweet sister no matter what mistakes you have made know that you are not the first and unfortunately you won't be the last. Life goes on. At 18 people are still trying to figure out who they are. Listen for your voice and hear what it has to say. You are the future. Sometimes when we suffer it let's know how much we can stand. When we look back at our trials we see that though obstacles may come we continue to progress. Sweetheart I am the seed of two 16yrs old parents. They didn't do bad for themselves and I turned out just fine. Sometimes life was hard but the hardtimes make us not break us. Sweetheart you have decisions to make. Know that you are never alone or without love.


    Peace.......
     
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    Don't turn back
    continue forward
    greater love is in stor
    no need to answer that
    door or care less
    listen as i try to caress
    go head confess
    intently listen yet do rest
    let it pass it's not the last
    we still in search of whom
    and what and sometime we
    get stuck or feel no luck
    but the golden treasure is
    a measure of faith
    sometime tryed from a face
    in any place but ya life no
    waste ya a goddess a sista
    queen this just one bad dream
    go head scream aloud and
    continue so many are proud
    hear me forth i care , i know ya pain
    that has stain the hour glass of
    tomorrow stay in the race ya winning
     
  10. krazelyricks

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    No, I didn't answer the door. I hollered out the window that I was sick. They got mad because I told them to come over and then I changed my mind but I don't care. I wasn't in the mood anymore. However, I still don't see how someone could throw something so hurtful in someone's face like that. I admit that I was pregnant before but he didn't have to say it like he said it. He even compared the father of my child to a thug. Now, that was just wrong. Dre was not a thug. He was a college student. Shoot, now he's an aerospace engineer today making crazy loot. When I got pregnant I was not around thugs. I was around a different calliber of people. Before he talks **** he needs to know what he's talking about. That hurt and it cut me to the bone. I got so mad that if I had saw the guy who said it face to face, mono e mono, I would have slapped him and worried about the consequences later. I tell ya, people don't care who they hurt these days. He was the main one in the thread talking about this generation today this and this generation today that when he was acting just like he SAID we acted....a [email protected] fool. I don't know, it's kinda of hard to write down all I'm thinking in poetic form and paragraph form. This is the first time that I've been this mad in a long time. :uhoh: The last time this happened someone was hurt and bad. I have to remember though that I'm not that individual anymore. I'm better than that. No matter how many connections I have to almost everything I must not use them because I'm not like that anymore. Life is just hard, everywhere I turn it's an obstacle, when will life just be peaceful for me? When will I just sit back and reap everything God has for me? Um, maybe tomorrow.... :crying:
     
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