Black Poetry : I Didn't Put In...

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  1. Heartfelt

    Heartfelt Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    When I met you, I thought of us as first being friends
    Because of the occurrences of a previous relationship, I didn't want to have my heart broken again
    When you proceeded to pursue me
    My mind went haywire and I couldn't believe
    That what I'd hoped for was actually happening

    What I'm trying to say is:
    I didn't put in to have my heart broken
    Over essential words that were left unspoken
    I didn't put in to remember songs that you used to play for me
    Or to be reminded of your son when you called me "baby"
    I didn't put in to suffer and go through this mess
    Now because of you my life has been full of stress
    I didn't put in to have my emotions played with
    With all the things I'm saying you can obviously get the gist

    Time and time again I wondered what was going through your head
    When you asked me to be your girl
    Did you just want to get me in bed?
    When I did say "yes", you demonstrated elation
    Come to think of it now, I think you were primarily faking

    I didn't put in to be deceived and lied to
    To be subject to unwanted pain
    But my love did not deny you
    I didn't put in to be treated with disrespect
    I now know what it feels like to be left alone due to neglect
    I didn't put so much into this relationship
    To be forced to the curb, beat up, and kicked
    I hope you hear me because...
    I didn't put in to have you run to a new love
    You had engulfed my brain, so you were all I was thinking of

    So many thoughts of you kissing me softly
    Running your hands expertly over my body
    There were so many times when I did want to get naughty
    Take me to my prom, the beach, your house
    Those were some of the places I did want you to escort me

    I didn't put in to have my deepest desires crushed
    I wanted to be with you, but I didn't want to rush
    I didn't put in to have you seduced and tempted by your ex
    And when you told me what happened, I wondered what would happen next
    Can you believe......
    That I didn't put in to have you call me names and be verbally degraded?
    I told you before that addressing me as "punk" and other stupid names was something that I truly hated
    I didn't put in to be teased with a love that I wanted,
    To be withheld from you, thoughts of the past had me haunted
    I can't help but think of the life we could've had
    But your leaving me and not saying a word made me more than mad
    I literally wanted to live with you and take part in caring for and raising your son
    But those are past thoughts
    What's done is done

    I didn't put in to be excommunicated from your life
    I hoped that in the future, my dreams would come true of being your wife
    I really didn't put in to receive limited phone calls
    Knowing you were out most of the time having a ball
    I'm trying to let you know that...
    I didn't put in to hear the words "I love you" from your mouth actually be fake
    How much of my heart were you really going to take?
    But on the real baby...
    I didn't put in to reminisce about the past
    Hoping, for once, that true love in my life would eternally last

    I love you, but I didn't put all of me in to feel the way I do
    To be in this relationship is nonsense without the presence of you
    When I first saw you, I was like "WOW" because your beauty amazed me
    Now, if you came back into my life
    Your apologetic words wouldn't even phase me
    I tried so hard to be patient during this time
    What I can't get out of my head is the question of "Were you really mine?"
    I just want you to know...
    That I didn't put in to have my heart stomped on
    Now the only love I really knew is forever gone

    I really didn't put in...

    August 7,11,12, 2003
     
  2. $$RICH$$

    $$RICH$$ Lyon King Admin. STAFF

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    wow!! u expressed this and done it to the max
    tyte scribe
     
  3. Randee

    Randee Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    Bonus bucks time, this was truly heartfelt. Let the world know how you feel.
     
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    true love Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    wow...you really let it all go...much mcuh love for this...you said what so many of us feel but don't know how to say.
     
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    LovelyGoldenOne Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    tyte flow...
     
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    triniti424 Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    i see you poured extra heart into this one...flow on :)
     
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    Bluewater Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    nice flow my sistah
    powerful..heartfelt indeed
    Peace
     
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    SwtT Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    wow....you got me over here relating to your words like whoa!!!! this is mad tyte
     
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    Heartfelt Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    Sorry, I haven't been on in a while, but I thank you all for reading and replying. It is very much appreciated.
     
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