i am young and innocent
i hear and think with no guilt or malice
i tread on smooth flowing waters
soft cleansing waters
i am pure and untampered
untouched
i am whole
until
my hole gets opened
poking and prodding
my vision of rosy becomes
a deep misty blue
the hues of red flow
mixing in with
salty tears that sting my wounds
my screams are silent
my heart is pumping
faster than his pumping
my chest is sore and swollen
from the hard sucks and
teeth bites
and he said he loved me
he said he wanted to make me feel good
he said don’t cry like a baby, you’re a woman now
and i froze in my discomfort
because i am confused
because love and this to me were the same
and i had to show him
i had to do what he said
and i let him use me
violate my temple
i am now broken
thrown out like yesterday’s garbage
when he got up
he didn’t even wipe the oozing places
he didn’t even touch my hair
or kiss my cheek
he said, good job lil mama
and i thought what did i do
you did everything
and he didn’t even smile
the look on his face was almost sinister
i felt like the devil was in the room
and that God had forgotten me
but he said he loved me
and i believed him.
i hear and think with no guilt or malice
i tread on smooth flowing waters
soft cleansing waters
i am pure and untampered
untouched
i am whole
until
my hole gets opened
poking and prodding
my vision of rosy becomes
a deep misty blue
the hues of red flow
mixing in with
salty tears that sting my wounds
my screams are silent
my heart is pumping
faster than his pumping
my chest is sore and swollen
from the hard sucks and
teeth bites
and he said he loved me
he said he wanted to make me feel good
he said don’t cry like a baby, you’re a woman now
and i froze in my discomfort
because i am confused
because love and this to me were the same
and i had to show him
i had to do what he said
and i let him use me
violate my temple
i am now broken
thrown out like yesterday’s garbage
when he got up
he didn’t even wipe the oozing places
he didn’t even touch my hair
or kiss my cheek
he said, good job lil mama
and i thought what did i do
you did everything
and he didn’t even smile
the look on his face was almost sinister
i felt like the devil was in the room
and that God had forgotten me
but he said he loved me
and i believed him.