Black Poetry : I am thankfull ,and being honest to my emotions and feelings..

[Auroraflower]

Lord i am thankfull....

that i am still alive...
and you know me...

So you know that i am who i am Right now...
and before...

and i am out of balance...
i am confused..



I am getting slowly in touch with the world out there again..
i have to go on move on...

but how...

one moment i laugh..
one moment i cry..
one moment i am angry...

was this supposed to come out...
where these old emotions..
or is this just because of the happening...

you always have the full autority...
and i gave my life to you that day .....last year...
but does this make sense ...
you own it anyway.....

and you always have been there...

if there are old things...
that still didnt come out...
he i am ...
again ....





are there deeper things...?
the women in church spoke to me..
she said ....
always have the feeling of abandonment
though it felt alone...
heavy family sercomstances....

but he never left youre side.....



you did not...
and i am thankfull...


did i leave youre side....
is that the reason of how i feel right now..



i dont mind bowing down...
for you..
without you i am nothing...
nothing...



Lord you are my father..
jezus you are my best friend...




i,m just confused ...
and my neck is hurting....
and i am on my own in my room




than she said...(than the woman)

let it out...


the cry...


has it not come all out...?


I forgave ...

those ...



some of them never said sorry......
but i leave that up to you...

but i forgave them......
and i even pray for them.....

i know cause other wise you dont forgive me...
and i want to i want to be free...



some one said ...
there is no need to question things...?

i dont want to but yet some come..
and some answers come and some not...

do i have to learn from this...
if not ...
i did....
i learn from everything ..
and i try to take the positive out of the bad....

i am thankfull i am alive...

You SEEE right on this moment just now ...
a little boy sitting next to me and he smiled..(in the internet cafe )
i would want to miss it........

i am thankfull that i am alive...
and i do .......


wasnt i before ...?
didnt i noticed life...
did i not walked in the light ..in life..

the birds nature ,the people the beauty in them...
breath..


but help me lord to put these emotions back in the right place..
or let them flow in the right order......
the way you want it...
take control...

and please protect me from more confusion..
than it already somethimes was..

maybe this is a another new start......



guide me lord...


with these emotions and feelings...




it feels like ......



?????


i dont know...




what is my purpus...


here now...


does it mather if i tell people about the good news about the savior ..
about you..do you want me to continue ...

what is my role....

the bible also says that ..the destiny comes to everyone..

believers and not believers....

and your ways are not our ways....


as if i try to understand it all....


well i dont...



and i dont want to i am human...

and i make mistakes...

I am a woman .......




i am a human...



what is my purpus....?


love you ...
and love my neighbours...



i,m doing my best ......
and only know...





i am a human ....


and i am ...




confused....


and you are the only one that can bring me back....

her on my 2 feet....





and make walk on youre path...





not mines but yours...







but i have to say it aint easy......

 

[GHETTOAMBITION]

that is so true my sistah, it aint eazy
and i am going through da struggles as well
but keep yo head up and jus keep prayin
but i was feelin yo flo
derr waz so much truth in dis
so flo on



blackluv and bp

 

[$$RICH$$]

feeling all your deep inner emotions and feelings here
we all cross this path at some point.

 

[Sefirot]

"but i have to say it aint easy....."

Empathetic. For a large portion, it was like I was sitting here reading something I had written to myself. Straight up.

*edit* Just came to the realization that the only thing I can do is "right." Isn't that (most humbly) what I would, and do want of myself? I'm guilty. I have no vagueness between what is right and wrong. And it seems so simple, in reality. But tomorrow I'm likely to awaken and realize, once again, just how hard it really is.

 

[asimplepoet]

Whoa! did you peek through the window of my mind and pull out my inner turmoil for all the world to see. It felt this poet deep down. It was like looking through a mirror and seen my reflection expressed poetically. I'll pass the advice that was given to me on to you. They said keep living God and time will heal all wounds and HE will shown you wour path and purpose in due time.