Black Poetry : How shoud I feel???

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  1. sheikdadon

    sheikdadon Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    The pain I feel is immeasurable
    As I type these thoughts I look on threw Remy induced red eyes
    the Iranian bud got me intune with what I try to disguise
    she punched me in the mouth and kicked me out her car
    spitting blood on a black road clad in ball shorts n tee
    nothing but socks n kicks but im a she not he
    and somewhere bra n underwear shouldve been but wasnt there
    kinda like the credit for efforts rendered but replaced with venom..
    I have never lashed out and hit, restrain yes, duck n dodge
    plus me if she gets pist is my nights sexual menage
    I dont regret my service to this nation
    the military used me up is what she screams
    its always me being dumb and incompetent
    I dont say anything because I hate to fuss
    maybe thats why im walking with no bra in the dark
    on a road with curves and no side walk, in the rain
    swallowing my own blood...I gotta leave a house she bought
    but we bought in her name but we are legally married just the same
    how should I feel? Remy said drink and about it we can think
    Irene says inhale her deep and I say
    how am I suppose to feel? Better yet I oblige so I cant feel...
    Pain is what I feel ripped 2 shreds
    Not smoking n drinking to suppress, but 2 ease the distress
    talk down to me but im older demand this
    always her way or no way plus my moms schizophrenic
    24 years just now finding out knowing couldve made the difference
    Im feeling like a orphan all over again
    sick of being kicked out of places I called home
    I feel like a ....cause I dont hit back her words pierce my soul
    its always my fault for what she does so y should i talk
    y should i care when she says she doesn't?
    how the === should I feel? Like I wanna cry
    cause Allah knows im bleeding torment like dying inside
    I wanna just swallow n cut my attachment n cycle you out
    but I cant shake the feeling of wanting 2 fight 4 us
    but how should I feel?? How should I ---- feel??
     
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    cherryblossom Banned MEMBER

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    Highly emotionally-charged piece....reflective and poignant.

    Somber but vividly expressed.
     
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    $$RICH$$ Lyon King Admin. STAFF

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    feeling da depth of this emotional piece dat's heart felt within.
     
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