Black Poetry : heart failure

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  1. ladybug

    ladybug Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    what i need from u is to leave

    let me hurt and let me be
    the woman that i longed to be
    strictly for you

    but because of your own circumstances
    "it" just wouldn't do

    but "I"
    i would do anything u asked me to

    even lowering myself
    so that i could stand next to you

    during your times in need
    when all the while

    you never had intentions
    of me and you to stay

    see it was just a temporary fix
    for what was meant to be permanent

    but i know your games and i know your lies
    but what matters the most
    is that i know your eyes

    and boy they tell a different story
    from what i can tell

    and they tell me that even though
    you front at me

    that deep down within is where u
    find room to care

    care about yo **** self i mean
    because see it was always about u
    and never about me

    the misery was the product of "that"
    now we have come back
    in order to see what has become of that

    the love for u was always real

    but the pain i can't endure

    i have to leave u
    and deal with the fact

    that my heart has nowhere else to go

    but it would rather be loveless

    then deal with this inconsistency
    which is all u seem to bring

    u tell me how your never gonna leave


    me or her

    as if u r doing us a favor

    by ****ing us both

    now i know she's the one u wifed

    and i am the one who is actually in yo life

    but when r u gonna realize

    that loving us both
    never made it right

    now i will take away from the fact
    that u hold it down as dad

    but baby if u keep going on this track
    who knows where you'll end up at

    i love you boy
    and that's my word

    and don't let me even mention
    that i have been ridin' with u
    since the birth of yo first baby boy

    now no seeds i have planted from u
    that i will say

    but there is something growing inside of me
    every single day

    the love, shame, hurt and disgust
    has filled me up

    with nothing but lust

    so now that "i" have left

    and heart just can't seem to get enough

    roaming free
    it fills it self

    with **** unneccesary

    i fail to understand why
    but then i realize

    that it was going through withdrawl
    from my drug addiction ties

    that orginated from my past loves
    and lost lives

    and had a long duration with u
    and your wife

    i have had about as much
    as my body can take

    but the pain i am suffering from
    just won't seem to go away

    i wanna holler out yo name
    at night in my sweat

    but i realize that winging u off
    is'nt as bad as it gets

    i loved u boy
    and i miss yo "fix"

    but i have to get over it
    or otherwise
    "this"
    will be
    "it"
     
  2. msluciousb

    msluciousb Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    LET SHE THAT KNOW IT FLOW IT!

    We all been there at some point in our lives if we are truly honest with ourselves...but you, you say it with such poignancy!
    It is palatable...and I tast the salt of your bitter tears... for all the wasted years...I am loving your scribes!
    BLESSINGS ON YA HOUSE...FOR THIS TOO SHALL PASS!
     
  3. $$RICH$$

    $$RICH$$ Lyon King Admin. STAFF

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    whoa !! gurl flow tell it like u know put on dis ray of show !
    I gotta go !!!
     
  4. Da Street So'ja

    Da Street So'ja Banned MEMBER

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    DAMMMMMMMMMMMMNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN


    do you girl
    sometimes it comes to this

    DSS
     
  5. shaz

    shaz Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    beautifully versed poet
     
  6. wildflower7

    wildflower7 Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    very real. most women in the same situation can't put into words the intracacies that lie within. thanks for bringing it to life and closing the chapter to a sad story.
    -7 :spinstar:
     
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