Black Poetry : He screamed at me!!!!!

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  1. krazelyricks

    krazelyricks Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    Sweating dripping down my head
    Words at the tip of my tongue yet there is none to be said
    Looking around the room at my sweetheart on the bed
    And I dread
    To tell him my TRUE thoughts, so I'm speechless of yet
    And I bet
    He senses the tension too
    Because just last night, I was moaning......."I love you"
    Who
    Would have thought I could go this long
    With a man that could NEVA do me wrong
    And neva pick up the phone
    To tell him, "I don't want to marry you but my heart is your home."
    I know I'm wrong!!!!!!
    But I just couldn't tell this gentle and kind person who loves me
    And treats me so lovely
    That I just wanted to be free
    That I just wanted to be free
    That I just wanted to be free!!!!!!
    And not tied down to the SAME man daily
    But free to choose who I do without authority
    I wanted more than a man who just loves me
    I wanted a man who could be rough with me
    But at the same time who treats me gently
    Not a man that buys me flowers weekly
    And calls me hourly
    Just to hello and tell me that he loves me
    I needed man who can speak to me ghettoly
    And make me feel so WOMANLY
    I needed that, that's just me
    I know this may sound confusing or even crazy
    But I needed that for me
    Any other girl from my hood would love the things that MY man has given me
    Like taking me on a shopping spree
    Any day of the week
    And Licking my feet
    And paying the rent
    Who makes my back bent
    But not me, (slowly sipping a bottle of gin)
    I've gotten too settled into this life style
    And I just wanted to experience other things for a little while
    Shoot, I'm just a child
    And while he's had his chance to run wild
    I haven't, I've only had him by my side
    But how can I tell him this, I want to duck and hide
    Hide deep within myself and pretend I'm not beside this gentle man
    Hugged in his arms up under the ceiling fan
    My man
    Who makes me feel like a woman!!!!!!
    I can't think as I look over at him with silence in the room
    I know my next words are going to cause me doom
    But I would rather do it soon
    Than to desert him at the alter
    Or even worser
    Cause him hurt in the near by future
    Deep in my heart I know this would be better
    A tear, one single tear, descends down my cheek
    And it makes me weak
    To my knees to speak
    The ungodly truths deep with in me
    To a man who is so in love with me
    That he couldn't see it from the beginning quickly
    "I want to be free."
    Those are the word spoken from me
    It seems in slow motion that he turns his head to face me
    Pushing me back lightly
    To look deep within me
    To see.........
    The truth of my words presently
    "What?" He confusingly askes me
    "I want to be free"
    I repeat again to he
    And this is when he abruptly
    Lashes at me
    "What do you mean, you want to be free?"
    He askes me
    And more tears fall from me
    Onto the bed spread and even some fall on me
    There is no longer tears, there is more like crying from me
    "I mean, I don't want to marry you
    I don't want to hurt you
    And I don't want to lie to you
    I'm sorry Michael, but I just don't want to marry you
    I love you
    This I do
    But I just can't commit to something that I can't do
    I can't lie before the Lord and you
    Saying the great words of, 'I do.'
    When I don't..........I CAN'T be faithful to you"
    He says nothing, it seems for seconds
    As I want to run when beckon
    He just stares at me and slowly raises off the bed
    And decipher what I just said
    He looks at me
    As he nervously
    Paces the room not looking at me
    Rather speaking to himself ABOUT me
    I ball up in the covers and I suddenly
    Feel so lonely
    Then, HE SCREAMED AT ME
    "Baby, I love you so much
    Just your touch
    Send shivers down my spine.....it's a rush
    I can't stand the thought of you not by my side....and I wish
    You to be my wife so we could be together forever
    I'm not getting any younger
    And believe it or not.......I can love you better
    But if you want to hurt my heart
    And go to some other ***** to get a fresh start
    Then go right ahead because he will also break your heart
    Just remember one thing ***** you were my heart
    You were suppose to be my baby mama.....but I won't even go there"
    He paused.......
    And for a second you wouldn't even hear the scheeching of a mouse
    I felt lost
    A tear soon came down his cheek also
    You just don't know
    I couldn't take the suspense any mo'
    That's when he walked to the do'
    Opened it and screamed.........."Get out my house you little h0e!!!!!!!"
    It didn't take long before I packed my clothes and walked out the door
    Only to have him grab me.........and pull me back into the door
    SCREAMING.........
    "I love you baby
    I want you baby
    I can't live with you baby
    You don't have to marry me but just continue to be my lady!!!!!!!!"
    It made me cry even more
    Knowing that he didn't even have to marry me but it made him want me even more
    Then I SCREAMED.......
    "I love you baby
    I want you baby
    I would never leave you baby
    I will ALWAYS be your lady!!!!!!!!"
    Soon, the story faded with a different kind of screaming
    If you know what I mean...... :wink:

    The end...
     
  2. krazelyricks

    krazelyricks Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    Well, this is a true story. In fact, It happened last weekend. I'm no longer engaged. I decided that I wasn't ready for that type of committment but we're still together. This doesn't stop him from asking everyday though....."will you marry me?" It's funny now tha I look back at it, but those tears were real. I had never cried over a man before. That's when I decided that I really do LOVE this man.
     
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    i can't tell if this is fiction or not. please tell
     
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    krazelyricks Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    Oh, it's real phenomenalwoman. It's all real. In fact, I was pursuaded by a member here to share my real feelings with my fiance before we got in too deep. If the member reads this post. I want to tell her thank you!!!!
     
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    phenomenalwoman Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    you made the right move. i am glad you recongized that you were not ready to get married. that save you from going through some talk so ****
     
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    sorry i meant talk show ****
     
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    wow so it's off now good thing u found out before too late and save the drama
    i feel u
     
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    Man i was really interested in how this story unfolded....I too even in my young age was faced with the fact that one, of whom used to be my BEST friend/boyfriend wanted to marry me as well. It has me contemplatin'. I just hope I make the right choice later on based on how I feel and one feelings that are real, and not on how much 'he screams at me...'but I love you!' :confused:
     
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    this was way deep...the love held no matter the choice...good luck....
    Peace
    Angel
     
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    I really respect you for being true to yourself, and then having the courage to stand up for yourself in the situation. Girl, you are somethin else, specially for your age.

    Much love and peace
     
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