He looks at me.....
and I'm terrified
I'm holding this little life in my arms
That I once had in my belly
But now it's free from my form....
and unprotected......
He looks at me....
And I feel like I could faint
I can already see all those diapers
Doctor and hospital bills, late night crying
Rashes,Diarrhea, Chills, Cholic...
...yet, I'm not on my own...
He looks at me........
And I feel like I'm looking at his father
I could almost smile but....
Then I can see his face when I told him
Of the child due in August.....
And then I only saw his back......
He looks at me......
And I feel like I could cry
My parents are down the hall and I wonder..
I asked them...
"Will you leave me too?"......
My mother cried.
My father held me tight.
He looks at me....
I wonder if he knows I'm a bad mother
I have been in labor for 29 hours....
been in here for 1 and a half days.
Holding him for 25 mintutes...
..But I don't FEEL anything....
I do not feel the love.
I do not feel the joy.
I don't feel like a teenaged mother...
That just had a ..............
boy...
He looks at me........
I look at him......
He looks at me........and smiles.......
And then......
I feel it.
and I'm terrified
I'm holding this little life in my arms
That I once had in my belly
But now it's free from my form....
and unprotected......
He looks at me....
And I feel like I could faint
I can already see all those diapers
Doctor and hospital bills, late night crying
Rashes,Diarrhea, Chills, Cholic...
...yet, I'm not on my own...
He looks at me........
And I feel like I'm looking at his father
I could almost smile but....
Then I can see his face when I told him
Of the child due in August.....
And then I only saw his back......
He looks at me......
And I feel like I could cry
My parents are down the hall and I wonder..
I asked them...
"Will you leave me too?"......
My mother cried.
My father held me tight.
He looks at me....
I wonder if he knows I'm a bad mother
I have been in labor for 29 hours....
been in here for 1 and a half days.
Holding him for 25 mintutes...
..But I don't FEEL anything....
I do not feel the love.
I do not feel the joy.
I don't feel like a teenaged mother...
That just had a ..............
boy...
He looks at me........
I look at him......
He looks at me........and smiles.......
And then......
I feel it.