Well, our lives our just kind of moving in different directions, I mean, it wasn't anything whereas someone cheated or anything bad like that. Of course she said the classic, "We can still be friends" line and "we can get back together", but it's like, it hurts to be JUST her friend. I don't even like hearing her voice on the phone because it's like a constant reminder. So I try not to call her for that reason, but at the same time, I want to call her so bad and be around her, or should I say my heart does. I'm trying to dive into my work, but in that sense, I'm so caught up on my work now that I have a lot of idle time, which of course she comes to mind. I mean, I'm a lot better now than I was like in say August, and there are things that I'm able to do now that I couldn't do then, so i can see growth within myself, but I still recognize that I'm not happy, you know? And that's all I want, is to be happy again...I mean, I know there is a process of getting over someone, I just want to be happy while I'm doing it...lol