Black Poetry : Funeral Dirge/A Release Piece

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  1. watzinaname

    watzinaname Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    Well, it happened at a funeral
    almost two years ago.
    She saw family she hadn't seen in a
    while, and people she used to know.
    She received hugs and condolences
    before the services started,
    and after the burial as well, but the moment
    where she last saw the dearly departed
    and they close the coffin, the last time
    she saw her father's face,
    she broke down and it appeared her husband
    had temporarily forgotten his place.
    The family, confused, waited for the
    husband to console her,
    and after he met their piercing eyes, an
    embrace is what he appeared to offer.
    But, in reality
    He grabbed her, and patted her
    back harshly
    as if to say, calm the **** down, and
    get a hold of your damned self, see?
    A part of her wanted to say, "Look at
    what he just did to me!"
    But her grieving family thought the
    gesture was executed lovingly
    so the only way she kept from
    losing her sanity
    was to ignore this heinous reality
    continuing to cry on the outside for her
    father, and on the inside for such cruelty.
    She realized that life's demons had caused
    her husband to act like such a fool
    And after she asked him about it weeks later,
    he said he was too far gone to realize it was cruel.
    She has understood and forgiven him for most,
    and she doesn't think of this too often,
    but how does she forgive how he almost killed
    her spirit while her father laid in his coffin?
     
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    queentswana Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    She must forgive...in order to move on, with or without him, and surely that same spirit that he almost killed...
    will forever guide her.
    wonderful write up.
     
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    When the anniversary of an event approaches, some memories pop into the mind that are usually surpressed. Forgiveness for this will come someday, as it has already come for most other mistakes. Her spirit has recovered well considering... Thank you for the wisdom in your response.
     
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    forgiveness is the key to free the mind
    i can relate to it .......
     
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    Whoa...this conjured dark clouds full with tears

    ...it's funny how memories of pain can dissapate

    but the experience never leaves...

    the scar may be healed...but it's no less of a scar

    because it does what it does best..."reminds us, of what has been"

    feeling this...
    Sage
     
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    wow watz...that was such a different energy from what i'm use to feeling with you....good...just diffrent...
    the question remains...leven if one doesn't forget...can you forgive?
    forgiveness..to ease the spirit and allow the remembrance to be just that..
    a remembrance...
    always good to read you
     
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    Such a sad experience at a time when your in much need of a loving friend. Experiences like these often makes me wonder, "if we didn't have these experiences, would we ever be emotionally stronger? Would we ever know how much we are capable of withstanding?

    Funny thing about it is, Today I've learned to look at my bad experience as blessings in disguise. Because each experiences reveals something fascinating about yourself. And your experience just reveal something fascinating about you. Inspite of that hurtful moment, You still managed to crush it under your feet and continued to move forward. Phenomenol women!


    A drop that I can appreciate!
    Loved it fo sure! :toast:
     
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    watzinaname Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    Forgiveness comes in steps, but yes, it is the key, thank you Rich.
    Yes no matter where we are in our journey, there's that scar that reminds us, thank you sista sage.
    Deepy, I'm not sure if the energy was differnt because I wrote about it using the third person, or because I could have given it an even harsher edge, not sure. Thank you for your support sis.
    Experiences such as these do make us realize how heavy a load we can carry. God has made us strong indeed. And yea, the "she" was me--easier to write about it that way. Thank you so much Purple.
     
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    I'm with deepy - this is different stuff from ya, sister, but no less wonderful. I am hopin you can find it in you to release the negative energy from this situation and concentrate on your father in all his love and glory. Peace, sister girl.
     
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    watzinaname Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    I know that I pen a lot of inspirationaI pieces, gempis, but not this time round. I probably will be able to release the negative eventually. I hear what you're saying though sis, thank you much.
     
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