Black Poetry : From one bastard to another

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  1. afrostotle

    afrostotle Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    Now.....I wrote this a while ago...and I hope this doesn't offend or open any wounds....but I hope somone feels it.

    I never knew my father. In fact…
    when I offered his reply was…..
    why bother?
    Due to the mental limitations of His adolescent capacity…
    he even had the audacity to ask me……
    ”Uh…. What do you need me fo”…
    ”haven’t you been living just fine
    for the past 17 years..before your
    Mother told you that you were mine?”
    OUCH! Talk about a rude wake-up call
    the man who made me...
    Nothing more than sperm donor…
    hardly a man at all….
    More like a thief in the night
    the crosshairs of his sights
    set on her sacred innocence She……..
    defenseless against He ……relentless assault on...
    Her soul…Her soul….Her…….. Soul.
    More than her body you Stole…away
    after the so-called “romp in the hay”...and
    as dreamtime gave way to sunshine…..
    she awoke to the realization
    of a new creation a...precious… souvenir of sorts
    aginst your wishes...she
    carried him to term never considering to abort… her
    son. George was his name….
    the same as yours….eyes chocolate brown…
    the same as yours…. High cheekbones nice and round…
    the same as yours…
    you and I share features….maybe
    even a name….
    But pleeze refrain from being vain
    it was not the resemblance to you…but
    the angels in my smile that kept
    her sane….. through and
    through… when… times were lean and….
    hot plates were far few and…
    in between…but regardless of
    how bad things would seem
    she only had kind wordz….nothing mean
    escaped her lips about you and your …
    quick witted soulful sensuous quips and…
    I love you head trips..but
    only to walk away
    from your responsibility
    found out she was late and
    responded with some typical
    “it aint mine” type hostility
    but she never let on
    about this and that.. or about...
    why you left her wearing the
    unisex hat….
    Both mom and dad...
    two jobs….One Woman…Hmmmn….
    Not bad……
    she raised a good son.
    maybe it was best you left..without your bull****...
    she focused on us…thus…
    making me her number one
    So when I called you
    out of the blue…..It wasn’t
    because I was angry or
    needed something material from you
    mom never even asked nor
    told me to….just wanted it for my
    own peace of mind…To say I made an attempt
    at connecting the dots and
    tried to find…and..
    even though you….
    never had the courage to…
    come and see….how I was… or
    what I… grew up to be…

    You see……

    I’m not mad at you for making a baby…
    but denying it was yours….Shiiit
    I can even lived with being named George
    It’s the other title…. I used to get mad at….you know……
    the one that starts with a B …
    I know I’m not that know….but here’s some food for thought
    “if you’re the one that left…then….
    who’s the true Bastard…….YOU or ME ?“
     
  2. gempis

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    Big ups to you for this, afrostotle. What a beautiful release.
     
  3. angelicsage

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    this was quite moving....because this is an intimate subject for me
    this happened to a sister of mine, I love dearly and the child is a blessing
    completely....I never doubt that he was meant to be...
    but she...he/the child haven't seen or heard from him since
    the child was 3 or 4 mos old...and everyday he's growing...and it
    get's harder to say as the questions develop...

    It's unfortunate...but your last line was a question of profundity...
    who’s the true Bastard…….YOU or ME ?“..........
    I think we know the answer to this question....
     
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    well felted afrostotle
    much love
    Peace
     
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    pssssh puh-lease my brotha if this is wrong then you know the song...I dont wanna be right lol

    TRUST me I aint offended...
    I am that sista whos "biological father" (cause he aint my daddy) wanted nothing to do with me...but its ok my momma and daddy loved me...love me still...and I know my family very well...I love him for that much...its his loss...:)
    Thank you for this blessing my brotha :)
     
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    I really felt this...it brought some old memories
    about my M.I.A. sperm donor
     
  7. LovelyGoldenOne

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    movin' piece...
     
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    man...
    your energy coarses thru this piece
    with an monsterous intensity...
    i feel ya brah...dis was sum fire :hot:
    peace
    khasm
     
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    Loving this . . .so much emotion and deep questions and reasoning, man, your momma raised you right. Give her a hug for me. She must have had it tough too.
     
  10. afrostotle

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    Hey Fam.......As alwayz "Nuff thanks for the love wha you show me" But especially for dis one....ya see....a me never know him father, but me know one ting all tha while...and dat is... JAH me father, and tru his grace...me know me are go strong, prosper and live long........One Love
     
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