This is just a little abstract something something I wrote one night... and did i mention it's hard to understand...sorry. I'm remembering you.... as if your gone no longer occupying this space no longer wanting and needing to expierence my embrace to lose yourself when you stare in my face.... i'm mesmerized by the way we are and the ways I long for us to be blinded by the red rimmed haze of the possibilities the possibilities of infinite pleasure longing to be close next deep off in the depths of you of feeling your skin warm and coco-brown sweet burning impressions in my mind of your scent and the pain I feel wondering if you were heaven sent to punish me for the past hearts that i've played with and the guilt I feel for secretly wanting this crush I have to be real you got my mind reeling In the night time.... I dream of finding the right time to say things like... I LOVE YOU and you're the one my heart longs to be with insecurities have me scared to unwind completly in your presence will you like what you see...? beauty that lays only skin deep and this feeling it makes me want to slowly walk backwards and wish you away... wish away the pending pain of my solo dance in the rain to wish away the thoughts of knowing when i open my eyes from this most enchanting trance there wont be so much as a trace that this....... was real.... that.... you.... were real.