Yesterday I woke up happy to see the sun as it kissed my dew laced lips, Happy Happy because you were in my life and finally I am complete, Today I woke up, sad. Sad that the sun had woken me from my deep slumber of fairy tales and tomorrows. Sad. That you would "need" another instead of me; to fulfill some desire that apparently that renders you incomplete. This weekend could have been ours; instead you shared it with her. You stole your love from me, and shared it with her. Until today was here. I didn't anticipate that this would hurt me so much. I mean.. why would I put up a fuss? We agreed that until you were here permanently that we could each see a "he or she.. " before we commit ourselves to eachother fully. I guess I just imagined that it would be long before I wrapped myself up in your love. Long before I heard you loudly snore as I enjoyed being there for you while u were coughing till u were blue in the face. Long before we shared intimate moments of bubble baths and kites on the beach. Before I fell in love with you. See.. for me when the words were said there was a possibility that I may stray into the bed of another when you were long away at home in NC. So our openness has brought us to this day. Because we both agreed if we decided to lay with another one day; that It would be told to the other and by the rules we would play. So why has my sun in the sky turned into a putrid rotten egg spreading its stankness into my life for which no amount of fresh air can remove... I want to sleep.. Until finally.. Waking up until my heart dosent feel this way... and by this way i mean.. Desolate.. Forsaken... Abandoned .. Forlorn.. because from my arms.. my love was torn. Im not sure if i can get past this.. and when I try to I ask my self WHY? Because when men say they love you, they forget to read the fine print. Which says.. "revocable at any time, for any reason, and my wants needs and desires come before yours!"