Truth Love... Lies Lust...
With this new year approaching us at a rapid rate, I feel it necessary to share this information with u. Lately, I constantly find myself having the same type of conversation with different people. The details of the situations vary, however the core concept is very much so the same. I guess it's safe to say the age old saying: “The more things change, the more they stay the same.” It seems that everyone gets so caught up in a lot of preconceived notions and clearly mis interpreted views of the surefire difference between TRUTH LOVE... LIES and LUST. There is a grave difference you know... even though their path cross constantly, and most of us our clearly confused about which one is which. Energy Emotion has a way of doing that to u. Shaking up your conscious mind in an effort to detour u from the essence of light that dwells within your subconscious mind and psyche. That's where Divine Truth is. And in a society founded on lying, cheating, and stealing, sadly, it's encoded within our minds to carry on routine behavior as such. Is that not what the cycle of life teaches though? If u search your DNA (which is what I like to call your Direct Notation or Navigation to/through your Ancestry) you will see the skill of adaption herein. Adaption is a strong method of change, (change embodies life and vice versa) due to the circumstances presented in the environment around us at a given time. Webster's dictionary may disagree with my definition, but hey, I can agree to disagree from time to time.
No worried though... For today, with the guidance of my spirit, I fully intend to shed some light on what I believe the indefinite differences are between the two groups. But, before we can overstand any differences between anything what so ever, we much first overstand every angle of each element we are dealing with in any given situation. As a analyst, that's what I do. I strip away the surface matter of a situation, and attempt to see what lies beneath. As u very well know, there is ALWAYS more than what meets your pretty eyes. And peep this... u even have the ability to see things that reality deems as “impossible” to see. What in the hell is “Impossible” anyway? With God involved, how could that ever be? My theory... The word “Impossible” is yet another attempt at restriction of the intuitive powers of the masses by mankind's “Supreme Being” complex. I bet u though I was gonna say “God” complex... na, we are all Gods because we ascended from such, but, this is another topic for a different day.
Moving right along, let's take a little time to break down each element, TRUTH LOVE... LIES and LUST and see if we can identify how we as human continue to make things harder for ourselves by attempting to create a stable environment with things that just do not belong together. Although adaption is ever present and very much so necessary at times, there are cases where it's never a good thing. It could even mean the demise of one thing, or the extinction of another. For example... if u place a Siberian Tiger in a room with a Rabbit, now, just who do u think is gonna leave the room when the door is opened? The Tiger or the Rabbit? The tiger right? WRONG! They are both gonna leave, it's just that the rabbit will be leaving inside the tiger's stomach entering the process of digestion! U don't have to laugh at my jokes, I already know my comedic gene doesn't run that deep. But if u r smiling, I did something. The Siberian Tiger and Rabbit were placed in an environment where they had to adapt. Eventually, that adaption brought about the demise of the Rabbit. It's survive of the fittest, and an animal always acts on it's instincts, unless otherwise stripped away from the pack at birth or early age and trained to do otherwise. Is that not what happened to us? The adaption we are undergoing is the extinction of our pure African nation, it's core values, strengths, and unity. Although we all may try to get back to it, that goal does not seem obtainable here in the new world. We have already been diluted, and this is not our HOME! And worse yet, we can't even return home, because it's destroyed, and doesn't full belong to us anymore! And just HOW can we expect to receive the respect we feel we should receive in another persons home?! See, most of u won't like that last statement, and that's okay. Again, I'm perfectly okay with agreeing to disagree. Yet, while u are smacking your lips at me, and possibly rolling your eyes, try and be a analyst for a moment like I, and use this tidbit of information... we are all in fact products of our environment. You have become too attached to this world and this reality to fully acknowledge where HOME truly is.
Okay, so back on track... let's start with TRUTH. Now, I just shared my truth with u. Could u handle it? Though it may not be your truth, it's mine, and may be a bitter pill to swallow for those with whom do not agree. Truth in this world is sometimes brash. We have gotten so far away from truth in adaption because it made adaption easier. Not your fault of course, but that's reality. Truth will always hurt in some way because it's not fed to u in constant dosages as it once was at home. Now, if u r still struggling with where home really is, that's not your fault either, that just means they have done their job.
With leaving truth for a moment, we enter LOVE. Though at home we were taught that u can't have one without the other, during adaption we were taught how to fool ourselves into believing they could live without one another. Life is both remembering and unlearning. Remember the Truth the Divine instilled within you; your destiny upon your departure from home, and unlearning the lessons of life's lies that have been spoon fed to society for the time of birth until your rebirth in the moment u are awaken to truth.
Love may be so much to so many, but the one thing love is proven, “kid tested and mother approved” (like the old KIX cereal commercial says)Love is truth, period. Love is both an energy emotion, and a proverbial action. When one knows true love, their can be no lies or uncontrolled lust in it's presence, for then it's not true love. True Love can not live there, it can not adapt. In this society Truth and Love, in most situations is like the Rabbit, and LIES and LUST is like the Tiger... When it really should be vice versa. Again, we are unlearning, so, we'll get there soon if we sincerely want to.
Let's talk about LIES for a moment. U know lies, you live lies, u tell lies. You spread lies, u breath lies, u eat lies. U believe lies, u fear lies, u have adapted to LIES. It is all we know. As I mentioned earlier, it's hard to live a life of truth in a society that's founded on lies amongst other things. I don't believe it's “Impossible” though. Once we re-establish our connection with the Divine, we will begin to see the difference between truth and lies. Unfortunate for most of us, myself included, we still search without for what we already had from the jump within. Looking for tangible evidence of truth and love. We feel we need to see it to believe it, or it does not exist. That's a lie in it's self. Yet it's a lie that society has taught us how to rely on. Clever little devils aren't they?
Last, but certainly not least, LUST. Oh, u know all to well about this. It's everywhere, and in everything. Even u. YES U! I didn't studder, but I know people that do. Studdering is just a speech mishap that occurs due to a person attempting to say the words from their minds either too fast, or not fast enough. They also are being tripped up by their thoughts, and restricted by negativity because they embody truth. That may be way to deep for most to comprehend, that's why people laugh at one who studders. You have been taught to believe that studdering is a negative because it's not what society deems as “normal”. Man, En Vogue said it best: “ LIES... LIES... USING LIES AS ALABIES... LIES... LIES... JUST THE DEVIL IN DISGUISE”
LUST has existed since the beginning of time. Lust was in that slave master that crept out to the slave quarters at night to rape our ancestors. Lust was in that preacher that kept the choir soloist on her knees in the pulpit. And she wasn't prayin' either. Lust is in every music video, newspaper, and wet dream. Who told u it was all bad? I personally believe Lust is a energy emotion that is very much so necessary. Yet just like any and every other emotion or thing in this life, if u give it too much power, it becomes your Tiger. Come on now, let's be real. When u, brotha, saw her from across the room, nine times out of ten, you were not thinking about what's on her mind. And when u, sista, hang up the Arabesque Calender of all those fine half naked men and reading my girl Zane's books in bed at night, u ain't thinking about touchin' a brotha on a mental/spiritual level either. So yes, lust is ever present and very much so necessary. It's truth. The lie is born when we believe otherwise. As u know, one word in a sentence can make the truth a lie for one, and a lie the truth for another. Dwell on that...
Are we beginning to see the difference yet? I know, I know, it's a bit much. But if u have hung in there with me from the beginning of this write, the wheels are turning and the light is on. Because I am not one to attempt to appear without faults, I'll present two very real, very true scenarios of my life that may bring this whole thing full circle. I too find it hard to remember my divinity when approached with real life deliriums. LOL
Situation one: I met a guy through a mutual friend. We dated for a while, and he was always truthful with me. I had no reason not to believe a word he said. I was celibate by choice, and he respected that choice. On day during one of our many visits together around his neck of the woods, we ran into his ex girlfriend. She began to tell me about how they slept together, how good it was, and how old news and the other woman I was. The day this illeaged rendezvous occurred just so happened to be the day he was working late and I could not reach him. So it appeared that old girl's story was truth. Needless to say, when he turned to explain and admit his not guilty status, before he could finish his sentence I was through. Surprise surprise! Two months later, I ran into a girl that knew me from dating my ex. When I told her the story of why we were no longer together, she proceeded telling me that old girl's story was a total lie. She worked at the store that my ex was the manger of, and she also knew the ex girl. She also worked that night in question. This woman told me that she just wanted my ex, and was willing to do whatever she could to get him. The same thing he told me in several voicemails after the fact. It was too late by then to admit my guilt of allowing my past experiences to shape and mold my decision making process entirely! In the back of my mind, I was waiting for the other shoes to fall anyway, and he was a victim of my ignorance that I carried a preconceived notion of guilty until proven innocent... when it should have been vice versa.
Can u see the pattern of TRUTH LOVE... LIES LUST? He had enough LOVE me to be honest with me from the jump, no matter how I took it. He stood in his TRUTH. She, allowing LUST to be her Tiger engaged in several LIES that I allowed to destroy a potentially good relationship. I learned much from this situation, and trust me, Karma bit me in my *** for this one.
Situation Two: I met a guy at a Frat party down at Ohio State. He was single, so he said, had one son too, and was looking to settle down. Because of the distance between us, we only saw one another between breaks of school and work, which would be months at a time. We had planned several trips to see one another that never happened due to something happening on his end. His son, his job, yada yada yada... Anyhow, after not talking to him for the whole finals week, I said forget it, I'm gonna get a hotel room, I'm going to Columbus, and all he has to do is show up. I told him about my plans the night I rented the room, and his demeanor changed. He became completely distort. He informed me that this weekend he would be leaving Columbus after he took his last final to go to Alabama to be with his Grand Mother who was gravely ill. She had raised him, and he had to be there for her. He could not tell me how long he would be there, because he didn't know, however he did promised that he would keep in touch and promised that as soon as he touched down at Cleveland Hopkins Airport, I'd be the first he'd call. Me being the person I am, I found it hard to walk out on a guy I felt was doing a very beautiful thing. Taking care of the one whom took care of him. So, for 3 months of the entire summer I stood by him. Answering his late night phone calls, accepting his e-mails, and even sending him money for various reasons. One day right before Fall quarter started, I received a e-mail from his brother. Loosely it stated... “Seeyen, Tyrone(name disguised to protect this “mis guided soul's” identity) is livin' foul. Our grandmother is not sick, and if she is, it's doesn't matter because she is dead. He has a baby on the way (that supposed happened on accident) by his baby's mother, they are engaged to be married, and he's just stringing u along. Sorry I had 2 be the one to tell u this, oh well, have a good life and god speed.”
I'm laughing now, I hope u r too. Trust and believe, it was not funny then. I was crushed.
Here's the TRUTH of the matter. Had he just told me his situation as soon as he found out instead of pulling his disappearing act, not only would I have applauded him respected him more as a real man, but he would not have any Karma to worry about nor would I have been hurting as much as I did. Yet, he chose to attempt to eat his cake and have it too, which would require of course, yep, u guessed it, a compound of LIES. He had no LOVE for me, for if he did, the whole situation would not have ended the way it did. He simply had LUST. Two women, the good girl, and then there's the wifey that trapped him yet again with another child. He wanna do the right thing, but don't care enough about how what he wanted would affect all the individuals involved. He was looking out for self, and that's not the bad part. What's bad was the method that contributed to the madness he created in my life that I allowed him to create! TRUTH is, I knew all along something was going on. Every woman has something call INTUITION knows what needs to be known. When I igged mine, that opened the door to chaos. So for those women who say, I had no clue this or that was going on, it's a **** LIE. “Don't act like it's the first time u heard it in this song... 'cause yo' heart don' told u all along, and if u yo' mama taught u right from wrong... NOTHING SHOULD HOLD U DOWN THIS LONG...” Lyfe Jennings~ The Phoenix album, song: “Goodbye” Take a listen sometime.
Hopefully by now, I've shed some light on the four things I think we feel causes us the most strife in this life. But if u really look closely, it's not those things doing it at all, it's U! It's your ignorance to the fact of the conditions of slavery being ever present in you life and society everyday. Oh, and feel me on this one... You are not to be using that fact as a crutch or excuse to behavior unrighteously! You will get dealt with on many levels playing around with universe like that. It's you mis-communication and mis-overstanding. You distant relationship with the Divine. Your constant attempts and avoiding TRUTH, to try to obtain LOVE, that's already with. Instead u choose to stay in a temporary “Comfort Zone” of LIES because that's easier to digest, especially when it's sugar-coated with LUST.
This is just my opinion, as I always say, with these things u may not agree but know this: “The universe does not compensate u for loses do to uniformed decisions. Only informed ones. U have been informed, so take heed.” ~Tyana H.
Hopefully we all took something away from this today, I know I did.
Copyright~ Seeyen Oyetunde Nov. 2007
