Black Poetry : Fear Factor

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  1. freequeensee

    freequeensee Member MEMBER

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    I've always been afraid to die, but I'm more afraid to live
    see my biggest fear factor is my f***ing self
    and therefore here I am just where I was yesterday and the day before that
    and the year before that
    n sh** I been this way since I can remember
    always thinking bout some brilliant sh** I could do
    n seconds later making excuses as to why I can't do that ****
    see I'm shut out before I get out of my house
    my life experiences have filled me with doubt
    and I can seem to win this bout
    with this mindset

    Neva thinking of taking chances without the consequences
    Forever viewing my freedom through invisible fences
    limitations if you will that I've drawn up in my head
    consciously thinking if this is my living then my a** should just be dead

    Everyday that goes by I find I'm falling further n further behind
    And it's a crime cuz I realize that I'm only wasting time
    n making excuses for not taking the chance to shine
    n never rising to the occasion to claim what is rightfully mine

    Listening to all the negative thoughts that never cease
    they ruin my dreams and interrupt my sleep
    watching my dreams dissipate as my soul weeps
    searching my soul for answers and praying for self peace

    and I feel
    and I feel so restless

    cuz I’m scared to do with what I have been blessed with
    never lived because I've always second guess
    n the real me the real me has neva undressed
    so tired of hiding up under all this f'ing mess
    I'm hearing my spirit calling me to be more than my flesh

    but I am paralyzed from all the hurt that I've felt
    n so focused on all the wrong cards I've been dealt
    How many dreams will I take and put on the shelf ?
    Will I die living a lie neva to discover my wealth ?

    Knowing my biggest fear factor is my f***ing self
     
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    $$RICH$$ Lyon King Admin. STAFF

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    deep mental thoughts i feel ya here speak it and release it out !
     
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    HODEE Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    WOW.. freequeensee

    This is a great poem. It is so deep and profound. :welldone: Its worth reading several times. I will do so in a few. Welcome to Destee

    Listening to all the negative thoughts that never cease
    they ruin my dreams and interrupt my sleep
    watching my dreams dissipate as my soul weeps
    searching my soul for answers and praying for self peace

    and I feel
    and I feel so restless


    Free yourself. Find three positive reasons in anything you want to do. Then go for it cause they outweigh the negative truth. If you do not try to succeed you get the same result. Fail. So why not try you have nothing to loose. But you will have a much happier story to tell. This flow is loaded with things that speaks volumes.. when I come back I will comment some more.
     
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    peace,

    by recognizing your fear, u have already conquered it..........U will live sista by the power of forces within U...........powerful scribe!

    peace
     
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    your thoughts manifest in analog
    While this forum moves in digital
    And believe the cadence you flow with is pivotal
    Much like the Earth's axis
    And no matter how much some poets practice, they,'ll never match this
    Cause the power u own allows you to back stroke through black holes backwards
    See, your fear factor is the crouching lioness
    Whose words crack backs of cats
    Who claim to peel caps and sling crack
    In their pseudo thug raps
    The words you speak, Divine

    mad love poet ...do your thang do your thang...hookup :pool: :congrats:
     
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    watzinaname Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    That which you speak of rolls through my head more times than I'd care to admit. You posed this internal fear so vividly, it hit the target like a shot right between the eyes. Flow on poet, this was awesome!!!!
     
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    queentswana Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    Know that, if there's a question...there's an answer. You have asked and answered your own question...
    "knowing my biggest fear factor is my f***ing self."
    Be very careful what you ask for...for surely it will be granted.
    this piece held me captive for a moment, it was well written.
     
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    this was so da*n tyte, i'm still trying to pick my face up. we all go through this in life. knowin ur fears is 1/2 the battle. its all about the baby steps.much love, keep ya head up
     
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    Feelin this on many levels, and I hear ya. Fear clogs the life energy. You expressed it so well, really brought me to that place with you. Much peace and love.
     
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