Black Poetry : Father forgive me.......

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  1. nevar

    nevar Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    I in my heart I blame you for not being there when I needed you the most
    I use to call your name in my sleep and you've never answered
    I heard all the malicious things about you were an "Angel in disquise"
    I didn't care what or who said about you
    All I know I needed my
    Daddy
    Daddy, I needed you why did you let me suffer blows that no child should ever suffer
    Sexual abuse, physical and most of all mental
    Didn't you hear me
    Didn't you see the hurt in my eyes
    Couldn't you tell when I didn't want to let you go
    I waited until I had gotten grown to find out what they said about you
    Was true
    You were only for yourself
    I grew deaf
    Because all I could think about is that my dad is going to save me
    Save me
    He is going to put me in his arms and tell me he was sorry for missing out on my childhood
    But it was all a dream
    All a dream
    We connected but a connection that was in vain
    In vain
    They said you were insane
    I didn't listen
    I dismiss the warnings
    Soon after the father I pictured when I was a little girl
    Little girl
    Wasn't you
    Then came your mental abuse
    Why you couldn't accept me daddy for who I am?
    You can't change me
    Change me
    You see I was left to predators of the world, and you wasn't there to save
    me
    Save me
    You kept on talking about me, hurting me with your words
    But I stayed around because I wanted to have what I lost
    Didn't matter the cost
    All I ever wanted you to do was love me
    Love me
    Love me
    Love me like a father should to his daughter
    But all you seen in me is failure
    You blame my mother for the way I turnt out
    With no support from you
    How could you talk about the one who didn't sign her rights away?
    Rights away
    You were afraid
    Afraid of
    Responsibility
    It's Father day and I don't have you around now
    Because I had, had enough of your mental then led to physical abuse towards me
    My sanity was at stake
    at stake
    The devil raised the stake
    I walked out on you
    I love you
    But I am somebody even tho' you led me to believe I was a
    Nobody
    I had to call on Jehovah to heal me and bring me to the point of
    Forgiveness
    Forgiveness
    Forgiveness
    I don't hate you Father
    Love is all I have for you
    In due time I hope before you die you see I was your little Raven
    But for now I ask my Heavenly Father to keep on inspiring the way, the truth, and the light in me
    Because I am what I am
    and that is God's Child
    So Father forgive me for I never meant to disappointed you.....



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  2. Ionlyspeaktruth

    Ionlyspeaktruth Banned

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    heartfelt

    and powerful. We brothers better start being a dad to as many of our people as possible.
     
  3. LovesDestiny

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    Sis Nevar! Such power! I felt every spoken and unspoken word! It's hard as a little girl not having daddy around, not getting the love we long for! I can relate in more ways than one. But know that you are far from a NOBODY my beautiful sister! I am blessed just having read this! Thank you for the beautiful write!
     
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    deeply felt the depth of this piece
     
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    Every child wants their dad, and certainly you should not have suffered as you did. I am glad you see the beauty within yourself, because no one can take that away. Heartfelt piece here.
     
  6. nevar

    nevar Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    thank you all for the love shown to me on this piece.......
     
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    phynxofkemet Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    from this poem and Broken Vagina, speak to me about the love that many womben seek from their lovers, when their fathers are absent or emotionally unavailable. I hear your soul's need for true love and I pray that one day Sista you will have it. Stay strong and stay gold
     
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    Da Street So'ja Banned MEMBER

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    listen you don't need to ask ANYONE for forgiveness

    and it's amazing you're asking for forgiveness and you've been wronged

    if anything SOMEBODY owes you an apology and more in my opinion

    peace
     
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    VERY HEARTFELT

    AND POWERFUL
     
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    nevar Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    thanks for showing me love on this piece......
     
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