Hi Everyone! I'm new here and I hope that ya'll can help me. Sorry if this ends up being long. About three years ago I befriended a wonderful man. We were the closest of friends...best friends almost. We confided in each other about everything. (I thought.) About two years into the friendship we discovered that we had strong feelings for each other and began dating. It was absolutely beautiful. I thought I had found the man that I would spend the rest of my life with. I had never been happier. About six months into the relationship, he told me that there was something that he had not told me in all the years that we had been friends. He had herpes. (We never slept together.) He contracted from an ex girlfriend. He was afraid that telling me would mean losing me and he didn't want to do that because he wanted to marry me. That was a year ago. About four months after he told me our relationship ended. I broke up with him because I was scared and a little angry that he had never told me. But the truth is I'm still madly in love with this man. I'm convinced that he has to be my soul mate but I can't get passed the STD thing. He has offered a non-sexual marriage and adopting kids as long as he is with me but just doesn't sound realistic. Since we broke up we have remained extremely close friends (like we were before we started dating). We are both seeing new people but neither of us are as happy as we were when we were together. I can't speak for him but my current boyfriend loves the hell out me and treats like an angel. I care for him too but just not like I love my ex. I feel like I'm with my current boyfriend because it is the easier to do then to be with person I really love. That is so sad because I'm happy or better yet content but not fulfilled. Does anyone have any advice? Is it wrong for me to be scared? Should I have to sacrifice my health or my heart?