Your name bounces around my brain, like a pinball in a game echo’s of your words keep my mind busy 24\7 while the world spins ruthlessly out of control your inner beauty and mystery brings me back to ground zero. I try to reverse my feelings, because I feel like I’m losing control of them... I’m losing my wall of security, to your brutal insight & dead-on perception skills I feel exposed to an extent that it scares me, I need to reclaim the helm of my emotions. I can’t live with you weighing down my thoughts..... But it’s the best feeling load I ever shouldered. you tell me try to ignore the negative, and think only of the good: but the only positive I can ponder is you. you are the plus to my minus, the sweet to my sour you grow more special to me with every passing hour I’ll do anything in my power, to keep this friendship from going sour you are like a flower...in a field of weeds, just talking to you... rejuvenates my psyche, like a mental shower. But I’ll reel my heart in like an elusive fish I don’t want to apply any type of pressure.... You are just the closest friend I feel I have. I want to reach the level of comfort you have with me but my conflicting sentiments throw my equilibrium off balance you tell me to take chances, but I’ve never been a good poker player I just have to let our friendship be enough I guess. Derrick H.