Four years......
ten weeks......
five days.....
13 minutes.....
Without you in my life....
Without you by my side but
there are reasons as to why we are not together
...They say you never get over your first love and
I agree.....
But, I had to let you go in order to grow
For the sake of my future....
For the sake of my emergence....because.....
I am no longer that naive seventeen year old girl that laid
on pink sheets, scared and confused....
about to lose something I could never get back....
I am no longer that child that listened to her peers, crying everytime
you did something wrong.
Or, having nightmares and near misses, secret liaisons and stolen kisses
Do I still love you??...Always.... there are times when I believe
that I should be back with you because I have been hurt the
worst when I wasn't with you.......
But.....I can't......
I can't because that was all in our past.....
You see, thats the crazy thing about evolution....
Once you know something, you can never unknow it,
no matter how hard you attempt to forget....
So....no matter how much I want you to hold me and kiss all
my pain away, once my tears stop and the ache leaves,
I'll have to leave you.....
You're stuck in third world and I'm trying to move to the city baby,
I don't deal with nickel and dime, I wan't whats real
Not shallow, not trying to fill this hollow in my heart,
I'm jus trying to figure out where do I start,
Love's never easy....
I'll be in love again, get my heart broken again.....
but I thank you for teaching me how to heal.....
thank you for teaching me to move forward.....
and I will always love you
... please make yourself at home ... 